negetively uncleared

whoa!!!

2011-01-12T00:34:00.002+08:00

yes! back after missing a whole year of not blogging, and suddenty i felt like blogging for god knows what reason. cause of the random urge of reading my old blog post just gives me the mood to type some stuff down.
to be honest , who could have known that my previous post turns out to be hilarious. seriously, crap myself the last few nights while reading it. damn son.
so its been a year of non-blogging as i mention , and , no clue how i stopped. maybe cause of ns, idk.. so heres a jizz of what ever i acheived in 2010.
-ord
-attain commanders award.
- got a school
-got back on ma old job as an operator at ski 360
-got 1st for asian wakepark championship amature wakeskate .
-4th for advance wakeboard n 2nd for open wakeskate for mettle games.
-landed alot of new tricks
-still in love with ma baby
-got a new bike
=)
thats about it i guess, but who could have know that it was quite a fruitful year i must say. filed with ups and down, well thats what happen every year, but still theres alot of things to learn every day.

least now, realised time fly by so fast n it seems like yesterday that i had my 16 birthday, n this year im gonna be 23. TWENTY FREAKING THREE! yes old. and blogging for nuts.

like what they say,age is just a number. who the hell is they anyway?stupid or what? seriously getting older, and im racing for time.time.time.time. dont wana think so much.

as for now all i could think about is, school, cable and my baby boooooooo!
=)

oh its been awhile since ive talked crap, so here goes.

go out get some pokki pokki and walk walk till i find my self a kaki to sit down and have a stick of ciggarate and some kopi. then finish talk talk we go party at maria carry's baldi cause its worth the money cause it free. and party goes on n on n on till the sun goes down then the sun comes out again, then its goes down again then suddently it goes to the left then it goes to the right then it goes round and round and round and never stop. then it stop cause the traffic light is red. then then traffic light is green then it goes again then stop cause got zebra crossing, then go on n on n on till one day peter got elected to be the president of the under table , and is incharge of cleaning all the chewing gums stains till its clean so use loc detergent to make all the dirt go away, sho sho sho go away. oh hok oh hok cause thats the way like it, the way you move that pencil so unique quick like a ninja. so fast and silently yet fast enough to clean the back of my key board till its squeeky clean n not a spec of dust is in sight .one word, BED BUGS should be murdered! each and every one of them if u see it, just give a quick bang with ur gun, an the double bang just in case it is still alive cause its dangeroud i tell u dangerous!!!!!! pick a pack a pick a pack a pick a lets try the tangling toung twisting thing to tick that thing to take the thong to throw to the tic-tacs a talk till the topok turns to turnadad tubago to try and trick the trikity tricks thus turns the tracks to pack the packs and kiss the rats tosai. eh alamak, salah pulak, tk rhyme la.

=) love ma life.
happy baby?

love is in the air

2009-08-11T20:37:00.003+08:00

love is in the air and all i think of is you...

here's a short note for you. =)

i thought that dreams are just a game for our sleep,
i thought that colours are just something that you could see.
i thought that the wind were just air moving around,
i thought that voices were just nothing but sounds.

love, to many are feelings from the heart.
love, to majority are feelings from the start.
love, to some are feelings from inside the pants,
but love to me is the feeling when i touch your delicate hands....

after years i knew you,
you changed me a whole lot.
that's the thing i never had thought.
like dreams are now a reality when i had you.
colours are more than colours when i look deep into your eyes , and its true.
beautiful voices takes the shape of Hanisah Bte Rahmat,and the wind,
the wind are those butterfly kisses you blew to me..

baby you just have no idea how much you mean to Fahkrudin...
the care and concern that you had showered me with ,
make me vow, never to leave you again.
the understanding and trust that you never fail to have towards me,
made me treasure you more and realise that i could never ever have
anyone better or even close to same as you..and i bet my bottom dollar , your the best girl, that I'd ever had and i never want to lose you ever any more...

you're the only girl that knows what i think,
that calls me when I'm holding and staring at my phone,
that text me when i was about to text you,
that can spends time with me, yet not eat the whole day.
that does not care bout all the materials and money,
and love me to who I really am....

love you baby..........=)

for u Fahkrudin. YES YOU! read it!

2009-06-24T01:26:00.005+08:00

this was what my sweet beloved gave me to encourage me to update my blog..

Ive done reading some of ur previous post. like i said, when i miss u so so much, i will read ur post & that makes me feel betta. i donnoe why but it works! i have no idea when r u gonna read this cause only if u INTEND to update ur blog then u Will read this. so i guess not anytime sooner cause u memang besar nye pemalas nak update! haha let this be a simple & sweet surprise k. for now, i Will hint u to update ur blog.

u know what baby, i feel so so lucky, so so blessed to have u. we're pretty much in love with each other. see how greatly difference before and after, if u get what i mean. how we grow so connected with each other. i have made up my mind that only u know me best. YES ONLY YOU FAHKRUDIN! during my hardest time, my joyest moment, u were there to hold me close and be my witness. u love me so much til at one moment i question myself if I'm good enough to deserve ur love. and yes i love u tooo much, no doubt bout it. ill make u my last. insyaallah.

guess ive said enough. these are just random stuff i wanna say to u.

"when u feel e gust of wind brush thru ur face..............................."- continue it baby. :)

and that is so so sweet la syg...

and yes she kept on hinting me to update my blog so i could see the surprise she dropped me quite awhile ago.

baby, ur the sweetest thing that had happen to me .. i cant imagine my life living without u..
even without ur presence , had made it feel so painstaking for me to bare, like for example today.. u went fro kl just for one day, and I'd missed you oh so much that it gives me butterflies in my hard tummy just thinking about your safety there miles away from me...
i even put my nick name at l4d as , "din misses his syg hanisah" .. and it rained all day long ,making me feel so cold and waiting for your return to give me that warm hug again that i couldn't live without. baby i love you so much , only the elements on earth bare witness about how big my love toward you is..

hanisah said,..
"when u feel e gust of wind brush thru ur face..............................."- continue it baby. :)
fahkrudin reply,...
"that's the butterfly kisses i blew to u...." =)

i jealous.... but i still love u syg..

2009-05-29T04:20:00.004+08:00

well, its my turn to tell u the reason why i love you.

1) iloveyou cause you gave me a chance to love you during my ketalanz days.
2) iloveyou cause ur the only girl who wrote me an utterly sweet love letter right at the beginning when we were together.(n i still have the letter.)
3) iloveyou cause you used a paper clip to clip the 2 long letters together instead of stapling it. (and yes i still do have the clip, right at the same spot where u first attached it to.)
4) iloveyou cause you took care of my bag when i went to run for the 2004 cross country and many of your friends were curious why...
5) iloveyou cause u make me eat kfc allot and now u made me become a chicken freak.
6) iloveyou cause you let me send you home right to your door step.
7) iloveyou when every time i send you home, we always walked the longer route just to buy more time for each other.
8) iloveyou when every time we didn't held hands, we walk at different speed and ended up walking apart from each other.
9) iloveyou when we held hands when on our way back from sending u home, we dance like no body business.
10) iloveyou when u wanted to tell me something but u stopped half way and made me bagged u to tell me what... but ended up leaving me guessing it myself.
11) iloveyou even when you said "was it with u that i .... oh nonono it wasn't u.."
12) iloveyou even when you fell flat right when u alighted the bus at tampines interchange together with ur DnT file and resulting with a loud bam!
13) iloveyou cause u make me control my laughter even at the most funniest moments!
14) iloveyou when u became paranoid right after the above incident happen. and u didnt want to ever step foot in tamp int.
15) iloveyou every time when i reminded you of that, u said "kau you cerite lame seh B!
16) iloveyou when u call me Fahkrudin.(seems like my name sound so sweet when she say's it.)
17) iloveyou when you call me sayang..
18) iloveyou when you call me baby..
19) iloveyou cause we prefer buses to bikes.
20) iloveyou cause i practically grew up with you and known you since 2001.
21) iloveyou cause you were more than a coincident, you were destined .
22) iloveyou cause u live right next to my grandparents block.
23) iloveyou even when you didnt layan my lame jokes at time.
24) iloveyou even more everytime you layan them. (heh!)
25) iloveyou cause you're not just a girlfriend to me. you r my best friend, my sister and at times , my mother too. =D
26) iloveyou when you nag at me . it shows that you really care 4 me..
27) iloveyou when you gave me wakeup call..
28) iloveyou even when u sat on the bench near east coast beach with your leggins and legs apart, then you farted slumberly ,aiming at me and Dato K's direction and then said. "eh terkentot".
29) iloveyou cause you are so slumber at times.
30) iloveyou cause you can be such a sweetheart..
31) iloveyou cause you make me addicted to you even after all this while..
32) iloveyou cause you've sacrificed a river of tears for me...
33) iloveyou cause you sacrificed billions and billions of brain cells thinking of my safety when im on the bike.
34) iloveyou when you massaged my shoulder when you saw me all tensed up when on the bike..
35) iloveyou when you tapped my shoulder while on the bike, and made me turn around just for you to say,"baik2 k syg.. i love you..."
36) iloveyou when you glanced to me and looked deep into my eyes even for a short moment.
37) iloveyou when you smack my butt. (nxtime smack harder k. i'll gallop right after. =D )
38) iloveyou when we had long late night conversations over the phone and we slept till 5 am.
39) iloveyou cause you saw something in me then, even when my misai aint that visible yet.
40) iloveyou cause you make me change to a better person..
41) iloveyou cause you gave me the strenght to do extraodinary things.
42) iloveyou cause you made me more confident.
43)iloveyou cause we made our self much more mature in this relationship...
44)iloveyou cause you taught me trust.
45) iloveyou cause you taught me perserverence.
46) iloveyou cause you taught me sacrifice.
47) iloveyou cause you taught me understanding..
48) iloveyou cause you taught me loyalty..
49) iloveyou cause you taught to be me patient...
50) iloveyou cause you taught me happinest..
51) iloveyou cause you taught me honesty..
52) iloveyou cause you taught me to be sincere..
53) iloveyou cause only you know how exactly im feeling..
54) iloveyou cause you didnt take note about my flaws.
55) iloveyou cause you never fail to share your problems..
56) iloveyou cause you made a difference in my life..
57) iloveyou cause you've changed alot for me..
58) iloveyou cause you never fail to text me everytime you could.
59) iloveyou cause you gave me inspirations to beautiful things cause, afterall, you are my beautiful.
50) iloveyou cause in the end, who will be parents to our lil fahkrurrazi and nirna dayana..
51) iloveyou when you buy me bubble tea when im broke and thirsty.
52) iloveyou when you piggy back me ..
53) iloveyou cause you won't mind at all when we go out and i had zero cash with me..
54) iloveyou when you kiss my chin cause u were too short to reach my lips.hehe
55) iloveyou when we tried our best to sing together in sync but always tk menjadi.
56) iloveyou even when im jealous..
57) iloveyou even when im feeling stinky, you still love to smell me..
58) iloveyou when you were so ego back then..
59) iloveyou cause you never ever fail to ask about my day every time after work.
60) iloveyou cause you unintentionally lead me to the defination of the true meaning of love.

its proven, love aint about cash, materials, looks or what other people thinks of us.. its just as simple as two beings combined as one . its just love... happy 5th anniversary sayang....

i love you baby.... 25-05-09

re-read the memories

2009-04-07T22:11:00.002+08:00

I've just finished reading my long previous post and couldn't help but laugh my ass out . i didn't know from where did i get all the stupid yet hilarious ideas from. maybe i all came from the gelato's I've been eating then, or maybe the pizza's or even from all the red bulls. 'Sugar rush''. hmm maybe, that's the thing that would perk me up . maybe i should drink that more often eay. but too much of those is not good . in fact too much of anything is never good.. except for Oxygen. k side tracked. yep, Ive changed allot and hmm some part of it(refers to the changes in me) , i don't really like it , but most of it, I'm loving it. but who cares, like I've always said to my self all along, learn to except changes .
just to sum up everything in life so far, its all about love it fills the air, taking over the atmosphere and seeps thru every gaping hole of our body heh..
time seems to be in his boots of speed , and without realising , the number for this year will be , 60! y 60? shhhhhhhh.. its a secret. will tell u tomorrow alright..

;)

changes

2009-02-11T22:23:00.002+08:00

Changes occur in an instant and i guess i don't adapt to changes quite well as i was expected to.. But hmm, changes do need to occur once in a while....
guess i need to learn to adapt to changes faster.. perhaps take some measures to aid adaptation quicker . i believe its not going to be easy .... not at all..

lucky leads to being envied .. envy, leads to problems..so learn to love , except and be truthful to what u are feeling.

just some random thoughts about life...

back from fever!

2009-01-30T01:13:00.002+08:00

hello people!

im back and well from my fever! well, havent really recovered 100% but , mmm, perhaps abt 84% maybe.and i dont know why must it be 84%. hmm. having slight headache. but manageble . 2days mc seems more appreciated ever . ever in ma life cause maybe ns make me appreciate things more ,And rarely i would fall sick but ofcourse accumulated bacteria in ma bod maybe . or too much crap i had consumed. i wonder if we could get better just by talking crap every and in every sentence could make u a healthy person. if so, im a super healthy dude yaw! or even better, talking crap can help u develop six packs. well if that is true then me and my clicks can already be considered " mucho- man". and if mucho-man is a super hero then he'll be named, " Mucho-Man Man! " or " M.M.M" . or better pronounced as , "Mmmmmmm." hmmm sounds delicious ....

hey! i fell better already! k i should do this more.

aniways, went kite-flying with bucuk at pasir ris park earlier today it was just as awesome as always. i dont know why but lately i just got a thing with kite flying. something bout it just calms me down. hmmm.. new hobby perhaps. but me my baby was thinking of getting a much bigger and better kite so that we could reach greater heights or greater control of the kite perhaps.. orgasmic feeling i tell u! and talking bout new hobby, there are a couple of hobbies in my mind for me to choose.. maybe u guys can help me eh.

-err like said, kite-flying
-long-boarding
-back to skateboarding
-back to wake-skating
-inline-hockey
-break-dancing (hey why u laugh! better than suffeling right! fucking mayreps! haha)
-collect stamps
-collect best friends( like nisa :P)
-collect straws then joint them up together and play "dun-dun-cang"

dont know la.. help eh pple!help!

what am i supose to do?

2009-01-13T00:35:00.002+08:00

CLUELESS~

im done with my self regarding some issue im facing right now.
still im content to have dearest arnd.
bucks-afta-bucks i've pulled out,
seems like its pulling my brain out aswell.
well im just glad that its the end of if.
this time i just kept quiet.
dont wana talk about it anymore.
like i said earlier. im done.

During my hardest times,
there are pple who i still could rely on always.
my mom, my sis , adib, and most importantly , my sweetheart.
they were the pple who stood beside me when i need then the most.

but its dissapointing when i cnt be there when they needed me.
well. i hope life wont go on this way la.. i dont feel good atall with this fyi.
wish i could find a way to repay them for all their efforts..

IM JUST SO FUCKING SHAGGED NOW....

pop oh!!!!

2008-12-11T00:53:00.002+08:00

actually im damn lazy to update la, but becoz of all the promises i made to baby abt wanting to update my blog, si i will alright. only becoz u.

about what happen recently...... im juz gonna make it short

im done with my police basic training about a month ago, so mow im posted to PMU soc. training in soc to me is fun coz its kindda my cup of tea. yup i love the intense training coz , hmmm.. i also dunno y. i juz like it. and its also the end of my training there so this sunday will be posted to team. so if anyone of u saw me during my duties, please2 i beg u, do not approch me k. favour a. the least that u can do is just to give me a smile. except of my dear hanisah, .heh. special case.

so thats that for my ns life.

ouu yea went skating with qader juz now . yea its been a long time since we had skating sessions coz every on is busy doing their own stuff la.. but cant be blame
i guess. it happens. but atleast we try to slot in some time for our friends. including mannan ,who we surpised him during his birthday celebration at singapore flyer. bro you should have seen the disbelief on ur face sia.. i know u like it alot. the persatuan brought him boxers from levi's and a last min birthday note which has 5 stick man and 3 woman representing the persatuan and on top of it , it is a normal birth wish. so bro, dun forget about us alright. oh yes, and adila was there too sia..!! rare sight sia! u should be honoured man.

lately been spending alot of time with baby.
and guess what?
miss hanisah bte rahmat successfully completed running from tamp st 21 uptill pasir ris park on the 10-december-2008 ! congratulation yaw.it has really been a hassel for me la during the jog with her cos she keeps wanting to stop a rest. berat bontz betol! and yes2! we really enjoyed it la. its been ages since we last jog together and having successfully complete the run with her up to pasir ris was a HUGE accomplishment..
but the bad part is that , after the run, si gile nie lapar la tersangat, and she feels like eating breakfast pan cake at mac. KAU!!!!! PERANGI BABI la SIAK!! heheh!!!
dh tu tkpe, bile dh sampai bwh blok pulak, baby buntal nie ckp something ar. something buat kepale bleh sot la Siak.
nk tau ape?

ini la ape die katakn.

hanisah: You...........

me: (alahai lembut nye..) yes dear?

hanisah: i feel like...

me: feel like what?

hanisah: i feel like eating potato chips laaaaaa.....

me: MAK KAU!!!!!!! PERANGAI!!!!!!

yes. thats how bad she is.. haha.. jgn marah ye syg.. even when ur like that i still love u too much la.. dun worry, no matter what hapens, u will still have ur fitness trainer here by ur side okay....

so there u go .. a short entry for u yea. hope u like it syg.

fahkrudin loves his baby oik too much to let go. =)

night of enlistment.

2008-07-07T23:16:00.002+08:00

k as promised, i update on my last night b4 i go for ns.

so its tomoro and so not looking 4ward to it , but kindda think of it, its not so bad rite?

aniway juz wana tell u guys who read this blog, especially the persatuan,
stay close no matter what , and please get hold of dila. she seem to be MIA.

and thanks to nana , izzat , the wak joffers , my fams for the great wishes and concern.

will be okay.

so this blog will rot to bits now. errr dont bother to read it after this post yea.

so take care guys...

and to my baby, please please x 10000000000 take care of ur self, i know we r going to miz each other alot2 , thats y i bought u lots and lots of kinder bueno to eat everytime u miz me hehe.. (what about me? :( ) hehe .

love u loads sayang...... tequeiro hasta internity...

few things going thru my mind.

2008-06-24T09:45:00.002+08:00

some things that runs thru lately ..stuff like ns and dept. yes dept .issnt it like too young for me to face that shit? oh well. look at the bright sight, at least i've learned a valuable lesson now, rather than later in the future.

and work wassnt really fun today. white trash. thinks they can have/do what ever they want. well some of them. and ,seriously, i got no fucking mood to work yesterday.or even today, apparently someone, i don't want to mention names, thinks that she is a big fuck in the company, and can take offs when ever she wants, and work full shifts on the most laziest day of the week and takes off day on Sunday. u think ur the only one who has a family ar fuck? pissed off when i got to hear that baby got to work alone for the whole day when she is not suppose to.. kesian kn? hies.

but even so,
baby have been really supporting..
taking care of me throughout the whole ordeal .
giving me the moral support i need.
telling me "everythings going to be okay, we'll get through this.. " thank you so much my dear. even Alec was cheering me up with his lameness. "thankieuing!""your welcoming!""go fuck a chicken.." haha fucking slumber muthar fukar.

ns is just around the corner. i just wana fucking enjoy my self before the coming the 8-July... so people , if u ever read this blog again, please gimme a text yah? a sweet farewell perhaps ?" heh. and i have ur names on the very last post on my blog b4 i go in. :) honour bebeh...

like Samuel L Jackson said in the movie ,snakes on a plane:
" im sick of the mother fucking snakes in this mother fucking plane!"

sleep deficientcy

2008-05-17T21:17:00.002+08:00

sleep deficientcy.....

pass few day, been working full shift and its exhausted i tell you, but still i love every inch of my job although the food that they provide sucks.

had my loooooong sleep just now at my grandmama's place. So nice!15 hrs to be precise. and even so im still tired, well maybe tired sleeping for too long. it happens.

aniways, yea didnt update for a very long time, cause as you know , i'm just working and working and working. miss going out just to lepaks, miss acting like a fool in the middle of town with the rest , miss loads of stuff man. well, what i can say is, things change i guess , but our outing on the 20th is confirmed okay. we ar going out nomatter what. rain , hail or shine. we are going out.

NS ! july -08-08 , thats the day where im serving the nation. hmm police. never picture my self , but oh well. just wana get it over and done with yaw. and poly after that. so 5 years down the road, is all planned out . insyaallah..

somethings wrond with my elbow . keep making funny noises like meow meow. heh , no, but it keeps snapping . shaunado say's its normal, still a lil worried i guess, but that does not stop me from doing what i like. "rock on!" . aiden and Ryan are making a wakeskate vid and im one of the cast . yea! so monday ,its 8am at tuas . y morning? cause the water is good at that time.

baby, i'll always be with u nomatter what hapens. and the blessing of a stranger
means alot to us, still the blessing from our parents means the most to our life. i will tell u aniting and u know u can too, cause we know we can't keep anithing from eachother. we will count to three and , we say it.. smile and i kiss your forehead , i love u ,we know we do..

~Forever~

2008-04-07T13:15:00.003+08:00

update on behalf of FahkrudinYasin. since ive changed his skins so might as well i update something decent here. he's been pestering me to update this blog but wth,ive got my own blog. anyway, lets move on. din been busy lately. with jobs & hobbies. hobbies & jobs. & when they combine together, we have johobbies! sounds niceee. here's some pics of his johobbies.

while working, he's crapping.

when there's no crowd, he wil put on his gears & get ready to ride.

eh seriously i dont have any idea to blog about. so far, din is in good health, is on good wealth, he loves his titi, e cat. altho titi irritates e hell out of him at night. k diam! nisa tk tau ape nak type & im not in e mood to crap. so there, new skin, new post. its betta than nothing right baby?

2008-03-05T00:35:00.006+08:00

first and fore most....

trailing was awesome!!!!!!

haha, well, i should have snapped more pictures la, but how am i suppose to do that sia.. (wondering...hmm)

but thanks to toki and Christopher, we really learned allot.. more confidence after that like really..

zai was there for trailing too..haha ..awesome la kn..
k anyways here are some picture for you people..

during trail while waiting for wan..
still waiting for wan..haha
this was the first time we went trailing together
zah's , mine, azmil's, razi's and wan's bike.

razi being a moroon while waiting for wan.

wan shagged..haha poor thing

during shower time for our babies...

haha.. overal an awesome experience man... i love it!..

the next day,which was a sunday, was work time la kan, and wakeboarding it is...

and it was bro's first time wakeboarding but he did well yaw..

and that brings me to another qn...

baby when is ur turn? haha

k just a short vid of wakeboarding i would like to share..

okay, Monday was superbly well, i must say, and i couldn't ask for a better day to go dating with hanisah bte rahmat....

the beach was awesomely quiet.

cycling was awesomely butt aching, but romantic.

chilling by the beach is all that i want to do with you..

sitting in a cold bus is not a problem when ur by my side..

eating ice-cream after that and sitting at the playground talking crap under the moonlight is the perfact icing for a wonderful day with u...

and pictures of crazy us!

wide smiles!!

juon me

juon her

sumbat her!

wonderful3!

oh shit! exams is on next tuesday!

i dont know a shit abt materials sia!!!

oh god help me please.! give me the answers to my exam papers..haha!!

and to my baby,i love u so much. bigger than the font's i used to write this sentence ..nyah!

i will always be there when u need me most okay..... and thats a promise sayang...

2008-03-01T01:25:00.002+08:00

okay this post is going to be short and sweet like me.. cause im short(i know) and sweet( thank you ,ur welcome). k here goes.

i love my mom, cause she's been so supporting.
i love my fams, cause they never looked don on me.
i love my friends, cause they are cool like me. haha
i love my hobby cause they are cool like my friends, thus like me.
i love my job , cause its relaxing and its cool like my hobby and my friends and ofcourse, me.
i love my baby, cause she cares abt me so much and i'll do anithing to make her happy cause shes my everything. she determines my mood most of the time, make sure i have my proper meals, picks me up when im down, and she has the sweetest voice ever. and only her voice is music to my ears, soso sweet.and can i go on please? hehe. syg awak.

going trailing tomoro! cnt wait..

going kite-boarding on monday, weeee!!! will post the pics, so stay tune alright!
awak, pls say yes u'll tag along..once in a life time experience.

wake boarding session was , a tk gerek sangat.. pttptptttt... :(

baby is busy with project..

2008-02-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

wahai anak2 yg masih belom diutus kn untuk membuat project,

buat la project kamu awal dahulu, sebelum kamu terpaksa membakar minyak jam dua belas malam.

dh sah in the blood la kn kite melayu. uat bnde slalu last min.haha, including me, baby is struggling to complete her project.sad lor..
but on the brighter side, she already ended her attachments!! how awesome is that? awesome giler la oi.

just came back from work and the day was not bad after all.
went to have breakfast at tmk with yan and zac b4 wehead of to FR. awesome.
so was at geylang lor 10, and am suprised to see something that i think is better for me to keep it to my self. so zac drove us to FR and then afrter FR , we went off to adams corner to have our lunch. aright! the nasi ayam there taste special ya know. check it out okay? and it u have extra cash with u, be sure to try the yankee( kindda like a beef chop with french frise and salad. slurp! :) )only 6 bucks. but its really worth ur money. so then after, was off to work and i tot of comming early to ride but holy moly shebrony, the que was more than 20 peeps. buys day. batal teros plan aku. humpttttttttt. but managed to ride during my break when there was not much people arnd 8+ i think. but it was awesome .
ou yea, there's this 2 indian kid and, dunt mind me saying this, cause im not trying to be racist of anything but those 2 indian kid customers are damn annoying! and when i say damn, i mean very, very veryannoying. more annoying than the "its raining man song" .. they kept shooting me with redundant question like, is there fishes in the water? is the fish going to eat me up if i can swim? why do i have to let go of the rope if im falling? am i going to get wet? kimak?! no wander the father was so quiet. cause the son was the one who do all the talking.. mcm nk ckp, " eh boy close ur mouth la. ur mouth very smelly" . but i kept my cool.. and the one case where by this chinese kid who i think acts like he dont understand english, and kept changing boards when the maximum is 3 changes/customer. the i told him that this would be the last time, but soon enough , he came back with " i thinkto, the boardo isi breke, i wanto to have this this this, cit cit cit." makcik dier la!! ape dier nk pon tk tau, check2 dier nk kneeboard. but i didnt give it to him cause im very bad ..

now im home and blogging because baby asked me too.. and im eating honeystars now cause i dun wan to be chengkung, or else, baby dont like..ahak!

take it easy on the project baby. hope this will cheer u up. cause i am so sexy. cecececece cecece ce cecece.

new job

2008-02-06T23:55:00.000+08:00

ladies and gentle man, i got a new job. alright!

and lately, things are going great despite some set-backs but what the hell . one thing for sure, i am gona be paid for my hard word, and thats final. i'm sure most of you guys don't have any idea what i'm talking about muahaha..

okay abt my new job, i kindda love it for now.
but hmm to much chilling can kill you, but its the interacting with the customers is the thing that i love abt it. its just me yaw. its a gd thing that azmil is back on the job so we cn merepek2. alright!

haha . dh lame tk update nye pasal beh tibe2 nk step speaking haha.. wth.

reason y i dont update is.......

one word.

lazy :(

haha. but for today is a special day cause i feel extra perky ! yatah!

maybe its because of the red bull i drank at work just now that cost me

a wooping $2.50 sia!

but its side effect cn be felt till now..must be my body.

baby dont like me drinking red bull cause shethinks that,

it's the very reason y i talk so much crap.

cnt blame her, cause i also think so.muhahha

its funny how one can have so much fun with the one he loves...

even the slightest thing will mean the world to them.

and our laughter cn be heard way beyond the face of the earth..

maybe we were really ment to be since birth.

imagine that...

remember when i told u , for every roche i eat, i'll give u a golden flower?

now im so lazy to eat a roche..haha!!!

funny dong.

and our slumber tableh angkat haha!

even for a short while that we spent together today,

it will still mean alot to us........

this goes to every one,

we are human, we make mistakes.

do what ever to make ur self happy,

just lookafter ur self.

u don't wana look back and regret.

tomoro going trailing with people. will see how it goes b4 i really do it for good..

and i want another snapple cn? im so thirsty and sexy. who should i blame next? my six packs maybe. or my sexy snapple..haha.. whats with the sexy sia..

announcement!!!!

2008-01-05T00:08:00.000+08:00

WE ... shattered skies will be performing together with miasma , which is abang body's band(qader) on the 18 this month. and some other band including azhar's band, and matin's (mannan's elder bro) band too..if intrested please tag alright.. tix are selling at 8bucks each, ..early bird discounts will be given at 6 bucks.. oh yah, venue will be at ite simei, time after 3pm . oh yea and alot more band will be there to perform so grab ur tix and support them k.. and support us too .

damn right..

miz u....

up dating cause its been some time

2008-01-01T02:59:00.000+08:00

happy new year!!!!!

yey juz got back from count down.. and it was awesome!!!k la tk awesome sangat for the show la, but getting to end and start the year with my baby was hell awesome ! yey..i like it.. i like it aaaaaallooottt..!

oh yeah! and after watching by-defination eh? perform, it give me the mood to perform again, cause i think their show man ship was superb ar, even when they messed up some lyrics,but their confidents covered up their flaws.. yey.. on stage,or "starge" u must be ego and not emo.like ur mom.

okay by the way, by defination is bisexual, and bilingual who bites a bai in the butt.. bababababababa...

ohh yah!!! another thing, we got phunk ! we all tot that hardy mirza is gonna be there, but guess what? he is not.u may see him on tv, but he is just not there. the one on ur tv is just a pre-recorded vid of hardy mirza.. don't know why they had to do that, but some of the pple in the crows started going out as soon as they knew they got punked.aston kutcher was there. fuck it i dont know how to spell his name, well so does he, dont know how to spell name..

and im home with a raspy voice, all thanks 4 nisa for making me shout!haha! well actualy now nisa la, but the blame should go to gurmit. cause tak abez2 ngan dier nye ," singapore scream!!!!

suare hilang macam mak hilang bab main catching jauh2..

ketupat bomb ketupat tumbok,

sape burok?

bukan aku bukan kau,

lemau.

happy 2008 everybody!!

sayang, hold on to me forever okay?

new hobby..

2007-12-11T00:35:00.001+08:00

seem like I 've go myself a new hobby..

didn't use a lot of money.

healthy sport.

makes me sweat.

fun i must say..

i think i like it.. haha

bt baby, i'll will balance my hobby with u okay?

don't worry . i promise....

my love for u will never be sub, by anything else ..and u know that....

and , i've told my self that next time i will always be there for your monday blues okay?

hobby vs my baby= my baby

i've always told u that ive got my priorities.

just want u to know that u will always be my number 1...only u baby..

i fetch u tomoro okay?

why?

cause i miss u. i do.....

even if i dont,

i still do.

contradicting.(i know)heee..

feel like blogging crap again, cause thats all i do best.

besides digging my nose using my toes, upside down..

shit, i spill it out.. dang.

i love u sayang...

short

2007-12-09T13:55:00.000+08:00

baby we've went thru alot,
so much that we just cant seem to lie to each other,
no matter how hard we try not to show.
the past historical mistakes that we've done , we learned from it,
and last night was the perfect example of, how we didn't repeat the mistakes..
we have our flaws but its the flaws that makes us more nondetachable.
like u said, perfect was never beautiful after all ,
but beauty is how we overcome our imperfection and live with it happiest. ..

You need someone who can protect you from your fears.

You need someone who will treat you with respect,

love every part of you,

especially your flaws.

from dila chinese's blog.

PS: baby u are really bad at faking it.. hehee..muah...

2007-12-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

fuck !
i just hate it when my friends mix with my female cuzz..

can please do me a favour and stop this..its really unconfortable cant u see?

on the stress free site.. where the grass is much greener and the cow's milk are more lemak bercream...hah.. things are going great.ive got no job. so much free time in my hands. except for the robotic test thats comming next thursday and im not fully prepared for that.. shitos.. other than that, its back to skating for me.. well i figured out that im too laid back lately, as in, too much chilling will cause a "beautiful" one pack on the stomach.. word of fact la kn. so i just need to get out there and sweat it out like i used to.. that goes to same to u too dear.. too much sitting in the office causes elephantizatiothe glutosmaxumus. meaning, causes ur ass to grow soo bing , thus explains the part where elephant is bring out.. and the tiger will lay eggs. eh salah.. k diam.

me and aim are just done with making 2 songs. our album will be out in store in mate febuary. please do check them out..ceh! world abez..
haha actually we just made 2 crappy songs for the fun of it. and one of then, called the chinese homo was a song dedicated to our one and only , hisham ching chong lay, the chinese look malay look chinese.. imagine a song with the rythme from the white stripes, but vocal tempo of sexy back, with lyrics all destroyed and fitted with the theme of homo.. oh yeah, the homo theme was an idea from our friendy neighbourhood hot bod, qader arbadotneng the hot arab
bod but fugly when he is pening. hisham gave the whole idea of the sexy back..
please approach me nan , qader or hisham or nisa if u wana listen to this once in a life time crap, and ur dreams will come true.. this is real. unlike the chain letters that u received. ;)

im getting crappier by nite and if i dont stop typing shit, naz dot will transform into bumble bee.. a black one ofcourse. no offence.. word of fact la kn..haha!
kk seriously joking eh... dh u can transform back now. then roll out..

someone please make me stop!!! arrgh!!! jangan ar!!!!

is it thursday?
i donno what day?
cause everyday is a holiday.
crusing on the free way,
its okay,
well all i need now is someone to
TOUCH MY BODY.
num num,
touch my body.
num num
touch my body.

haha!! dh la!! cukup!

to my baby,
sorry that i have to use smaller font for u,. i pn tatawu kenape kene kecik, kalau nk cakap secret, sume org confirm boleh bace haha! k aniways takmu tdo dulu! i need to talk to u! if i ever tried estacy, i think it taste like u.. shit! this is another pick up line! argh! baby now is ur turn to give me a smack in the face! sayang awak always HANISAH BTE RAHMAT.....

2007-12-02T00:33:00.000+08:00

DONE...!!

& hope u like it dearest..oh hello,im nisa...blogging on behalf of fahkrudin yasin cause he ask me to..ive change e entire skin cause im sick of his old borrrring skin..so here's a new look..he wanted sumthing "extreme" & "green" to be specific..i found a couple of skins & by just giving him a rough ideas thru text msges,he chooses this..not that "extreme" tho but "green" it is..so yeah! he betta like it...or i might just whack his arse!

anyway-anyhow,he's a busy man lately & he said he looooves his part-time job as a dispatch at expo..(oh just for 2days only) all he does was just chilling cause not much job could be done except dispatching product thru & fro from e loading bay to expo using a trolley if only they need it..how easy! & he said "im paid to lepak at work"..happy eh? well let him be,im just sick of hearing him grumble bout his rider job..u betta quit & stop putting any schedule if u dont want to hokay..go get a new job syg..

oritey thats all...im done with everything over here..& please tell e boyfren that i love him.. =)

for you

2007-11-26T12:23:00.000+08:00

tough miles may lie between us,
im still thinking of you..

i know that we r very busy with work,
but i will always be there when u need me hokay.
even with our hetic scheduel ,
will we always make some time here and there for each other.
i miss you even more and more each day, and u know that ..
we never get enuf of each other.
patience for us was always there and right now ,
just want you to know that i love you always. till the end of time k.

tequeiro hasta internity......mumumumumumumumumumu

attack of the killer tomato

2007-11-22T00:41:00.000+08:00

some conversation i had with my classmate adib..

din: eh dib tAdi si berok tangkap2 org nye rambot eh?

adib: ah siak.. abeh aku kene tanggap . cam sial tol.

din: mampos! serious? beh ape dier ckp?

adib: dier ckp that aku kene gunting rambot by tomorrow or aku kene sacked.
beh dier nk antar independents day nye kapal terbang untok attack rumah aku. fuck sia bro..

haha , this guy is fucking sadine and belo siak. lil bit like yanber ..

and during the survey feed back about the student council he wrote,:

since i was a council member , i had a bad experienced being one.. and i dont feel apart of the council. i was left to dust at the corner ,and for the first time i felt like i was invincible, like a ghost. maybe the council member can be more open to accepting new comers with arms wide open instead of acting like one big killer tomato.!!!

k next.

our life is all about work. and yes school for me ofcourse.. really need to search for a new hobby man.. all the working is really killing me from the inside out any more of this and i will just end up like a chipchedildu... and i got no idea what it means.i swear.

and i do love u too..

2007-11-08T11:42:00.000+08:00

haha nan! aku terjumpe nie bende sia!! haha!

raye is getting old.. time for a new hobby

2007-11-08T11:11:00.000+08:00

when the going gets tough,
the tough gets little..

little man!! hah

hari raya is getting old and, feels kindda sucky cause i don't think i had enuf jalan raye with my family and friends. been so busy with shits.
baby's on attachment , and i'm in no mood to do anithing, not even my hobby(do i even have one?) , other than just work my arse out and looking foward to jamming and our next meeting and the late night chats heh! didnt sound that bad .

alot of hings going thru my mind lately like, especially more that comes from the bike.. a busted throttle cable had just burned and whooping $70 hole in my pocket, sucks, and on top of that, i was fined $25 parking at a season parking lot with an expired coupon.. FUC**** CHEE***.. i only used the coupon for 3weeks..
no more parking on hdb lots for me.. no more. just a waste of money.

bla bla bla...

haha, i meet kamu okay? mumumu

grief

2007-10-30T21:21:00.000+08:00

mis·un·der·stand
verb (used with object), -stood, -stand·ing.
1.
to take (words, statements, etc.) in a wrong sense; understand wrongly.
2.
to fail to understand or interpret rightly the words or behavior of.
3.
failure to understand correctly; mistake as to meaning or intent.
4.
a disagreement or quarrel.

sor·ry
–adjective, -ri·er, -ri·est.
1.
feeling regret, compunction, sympathy, pity, etc.: to be sorry to leave one's friends; to be sorry for a remark; to be sorry for someone in trouble.
2.
regrettable or deplorable; unfortunate; tragic: a sorry situation; to come to a sorry end.
3.
sorrowful, grieved, or sad: Was she sorry when her brother died?
4.
associated with sorrow; suggestive of grief or suffering; melancholy; dismal.
5.
wretched, poor, useless, or pitiful: a sorry horse.
6.
(used interjectionally as a conventional apology or expression of regret): Sorry, you're misinformed. Did I bump you? Sorry.

baby..

2007-10-24T00:45:00.000+08:00

When you are ill,

our sun goes under a cloud.

Your presence in my lives

is such a bright joy

that everything seems in shadow

when you're not here.

When you aren't feeling well,

i feel the lack

of your glowing energy

and contagious vitality.

When you are sick

i feel incomplete,

like a jigsaw puzzle

with a missing piece.

Please rest,

take good care of yourself,

and feel better ayte baby? :).

i miss you

and i want you to know that you are more that what i ever cared for...

loves always.......

hari raya

2007-10-20T21:23:00.000+08:00

Is it alilbit too late to be wishing you guys a Selamat hari raya?

HELL NO!!!

well we still got like 3 more weeks to go so lets just enjoy our self okay people?

k firstly, i'd would like to seek forgiveness to

all my friends ,

close or far,

for all the mistakes that i have ever done to u guys/girls,

even when i didnt realise it.

forgive me if i've hurt your feelings....

keep close...

i'm just settled with everything that i've have now, and having friends that understands and is best..

hari raye for this year feels a lil different , both a good way and in a bad way cause maybe because i havent been really hungry as in during the fasting month(the whole purpose of fasting was to starve you know.call me if u want me to elaborate.heh) .maybe cause all i did was work-work-and-work.. time just flew by so fast. and i still remember last year just after the month of shawal i said" macam tk sabar je nk raye" haha! time just go by effing fast...seems like i'm soo looking foward for this raye..mainly because i'm reunited with her and its been freaking 1year since i've spend it with her. yEY! sok kite kluar raye okay?

morning morning, go solat hari raya at alkhaf with the budak2 bola, then had breakfast at mackerdonel as pernormal. (ceh bbual cam hari2 je hari raye) then chill kt bawah blok sampai hujan reder. (not hujan tedoh) then at 12 pm reach home blablabla......blablabla... seekfor forgiveness blablabla.....

snap pictures.... and here's some of them..

my family..

the anak dara's ... mane mak aku?!ahak!

Dyna Amirah's first hari raya..

at least this year we, rented a car , but hmm, didnt make any difference i guess cause we still didnt cover a number of houses. and also because i lazy+tired.. haha! dun blame me.. blame the lontong!

2nd day raya.. eh alamak malas nk explain ar, so i let pictures explain it all okay? afterall, a picture paints a thousand words.... but who painted the picture? k diam, enjoy,

ma sis, ma dad and the rented car

family eating at cik's place

Dyna with the "i'll bite your head off like i bite the top of my bottle!"

3rd day raye.

didnt do a shit sia.. BO to the Ring siak.just sat at home growing hair on ma ballz..

4thday raye,

went out with my ite friends together with some cuzz of mine.. and again i let pictures explain yer

from the left,me norlin dan azmi asik ika noi shibli(on the floor) farhana sazali at norlin's place

at Yus(the one on the extream right) house.

at my place..

5th day school,...

6th day school...

7thday was a friday, but went to school 4awhile.. cam sial la kn. hari raye kene skola.. k aniways was invited to join the 2B people to jalan raye with them.. fun la kn but we sort of did overtime jalan raye cause we meet up at 3pm but went home only after 3am.. haha! shagged but gerek.. thanks guys.. u guys are the man and the woman.!

the nice people at adib's place: fareez,fit,yana,yan hardi with zana,liyana in yellow,sara the cam whore and adib himself.

Fareeze terpranjat

the 2B's without yan cause he was not there yet.

Sara hogging the spotlight..at fit's place..and yan in green

again hogging the spotlight..at ber's/yan's place.

yan and his stupid face

ber and his stupid face and same pose

its her again,and us at razi's place

us with zabit and Gf and yana's bf (one in red with yana's lil bro.)

our hippy van: small, irritating but , gets the job done. oh yea, and door can only be opened from the driver's side.ahak! sucks but whocares?haha

By far the most dopes table someone could have..fishtank cum table at yan hardy's place.

end the day by chilling at the skygarden at yan hardy's place till late..

k going out for raya again tomorrow ! more pictures soon..

dh. puas awak? :p

happy birthday to me!

2007-09-28T18:56:00.000+08:00

26-09-2007

happy birthday to me!

i would like to thank everyone who wished me and who havent wish me..

first one to wish me was none other than miss kutil (a.k.a nisa!)
2nd was our very own mr punny ass(a.k.a Izzat)
3rd was abang body abang pasrah bang slut (a.k.a abg bolat(body+slut=bolat) a.k.a Qader!)

those are the top 3 haha.. thanks you guys..

birthday was nothing much but okay at the beninning of the day i guess..
the only that tk gerek is the fact that i have to work and be up by7am. so not me sia. like duh, like whatever like sister's 4 eva!. shitos!

but does not matter aniway cause i won't be going out until after breakfast.

met up with b after breakfast and off to gelatissimo to ape lagi ? get my free gelato ar! heh..
was nice la cause its been a long time since i had them..(the gelato's)
farid was werking too, and at last the G-boys was reunited.haha!!

after chilling at gelatissimo,baby don't know where to bring me ...(sob sob....)hehe. so we wen't up lido and sat where the view was awesome .. and we sat there chit-chatting and everything feels so right.. even when u didnt realise it, ur birthday gift was just beautiful...
who ever said that birthday gifts had to be solid ? love you loads baby..

well i'm just glad that im still alive to experience my 19th birthday ..
my wishes was simple...stay happy!

aniways this sunday is a date for the persatuan .. i know yadi will not be there but let's just carry on alright... we'll snap pictures for him.. heh. as for the sop tulang, errrrr, yadi can't have it, nanti nk masok camp , hangover..chalus!

fasting very fasting

2007-09-23T22:56:00.000+08:00

~Fasting very Fast-thing~

wake up at 10am, wash up, go to work at 11am.. go home at 6pm then breakfast..

haha! dang , ma life sounds oh so dull without including all the bits and pieces of happiness that totally change the story..

well, tiring but at least I'm doing something meaningful instead of just slacking at home doing god knows what.

kelip2 mate , dh sepuluh hari puase...

peh cepat...left with 20 more days to hooray! hari raye!!!!!

okay aniways last few days, been spending time with nisa ...did a lil grocery shopping with her at the super market to get some ingredients for her to make my pudding.. haha! and yea she made some awesome pudding i must say.. slurp2..make more for my kenduri eh awak? hehey.. chilli crab is crossed out already, so more dishes to learn ... nnti tkkn nk makan chilli crab and pudding ajer kn...

went to geylang with her on Thursday, and the place was not very crowded as compared to the crowd on saturday... packo siak..

many mats and minas+ many pple+bahangs= a perfect recipe for me to get agitated .. but atleast i got her to calm me down.. thanks baby..

not much things in gaylang ar.. same old things , kain, foods, baju, chapal, barang2 rumah...hies.. do something interesting ar like jual roller coaster or something .. i don't know..

outing with yati and zaid to gaylang was kecoh cause yati slumber and member dier bleh tahan banyak... haha... joking bebeh. maybe that will be kindda like my last time to go there just to jalan2.. bleh mati siak...

besok kene bangon pagi... shitos.! MiutMiutMiut!

simple

2007-09-14T00:25:00.000+08:00

12-Sep-2007

as the month of ramadhan just arrived.. tremors was felt
approximately 5mins after 1900hrs ..

aim(ma lil bro): abang! tkmu goyang kn kerusi la..

me: ape aim? tkmo merepek ar..

then i realise the mirror that was hanging on the wall moving and the water in my fish tank having wave forms, a sign or earthquake!!!!

aim: abang turon ar!

me: ah? er..(as i closed my eyes . a sign of laziness...haha!)

but eventually we went down and on the way down the stairs,
theres this nyonya shouting, goyang-goyang! ahak!!! me and aim was laughing sia!!

meet ayah down stairs...

and here's a review of our fams post earthquake discussion...

ayah:lain kali kalau ade earthquake , mengucap and ingat Allah s.w.t je..

ibu: lain kali kalau ade earthquake, bawak sume important file turon..

kak ngah: lain kali kalau ade earthquake, bawak turon titi(our cat) turon...

titi: meao meaow puss puss pur pus ,meaow mau!
meaning- lain kali kalau ade earthquake jgn lupe kite!

okay la ibu..
if there is ever an earthquake again, i'll bring down the files, the rice cooker, the washing machine and the house my self.. k settle!

dh masok bulan puase!

niway..
yesterday, me and nisa was at the wet market at tampines mart at around 5pm plus2 just to get some daging kisah ,kepak ayam and daging goreng..

our shopping list..

-daging kisah/ching-chang 4kilo

-daging goreng 1/2 kilo

-kepak ayam 1kilo & 2 kilo

ordered and i didnt know that 4kilo of daging kisah was alot and cost arng 48 bucks sia!! haha.. skali i was suppose to order $4 of daging kisah not kilo.paiseh la kn.. beh din peh selenger gi ckp daging kisah and daging goreng seperate bag..cause the will never mixed it..hies... dh lame la kn tk gi pasar...
haha!!

and baby, stop hurling vulgarities..or i'll hurl u to vulgar island which is somewhere u would want to know ..

cpt call!!

7-sep-2007

2007-09-08T11:06:00.000+08:00

7-sep-2007

HAPPY 45th BIRTHDAY TO mama!

morning-morning we went to search for Istanbul to buy mama her birthday breakfast. peh susah nk carik to tempat.. so much for the" tempat dier dekat block empat ratus lebih kt tepi jalan je, senang nk carik"..ahak!!! nenek- oh nenek.. camne cucu kau tk confident.. now i know where i get my "confident paru-goreng" from...

every time I'm one the bike , i'll be translating the Britney spears sound into a Malay version. here's how it goes..

dier untong,
dier bintang,
tapi dier nangis nangis nangis bile dier sorang..
kalau lah tak pape yang hilang ,
tapi kenape air mate terebang..
ai ai ek ek ek !

ahak! in good at this.. haha. and i dont know why im like freaking jumpy even the BIG one thinks i am.. as in every apek i see, i'll greet them..dang..

off to Afghanistan, of as my nenek say, "ganistan" .. she got this thing to like, pronounce the english word in such a funny manner that it didn't ever occur to me that such words you can even get it wrong..haha.. playground , is bad-don..
dinosaur is ding-dong-sor.. and fun-fair is..................EXPO!! ahak!!
okay i cant really blame her for that cause maybe its because she has darah orang melaka..
went to afgan to get her birthday tahue'.. , kiwak ! i didnt realise that i went half way around the world just to get tahue' and nasi sambal goreng! WOW!

the initial play was to go study with THE BIG one, while having breakfast at mac'ker'dunel'..but all we did there was eat and talk and talk and talk.. ahak!

baby was desperate for a hot fudge sundae , so i decided to get her one., which too me awhile cause i malas! ahak! aniways, it was my turn on the que to get my place an order,

cashier: hai good morning sir , welcome to mac'd cn i have ur order?
me:okay , cn i just have a hot fudge sundae please.
cashier: okay sure, what flavour would you like for ur hot fudge sundae?
me: (with a low and stern voice) a hot fudge sundae......
cashier: hot fudge sundae , we have 2 flavours, one strawberry and one choc.
me: (with the ,"aku macam nk tampa je muke dier" face) the choclate..

oh mac oh mac kenape engkau tk ajar workers kau yang hot fudge sundae tkde 2 flavour. macam mane aku tk ajar workers aku yang hot fudge sundae tkde 2 flavour, aku tk tau ade org mcm gitu yg bengap sangat...

prayers ,
soccer,
ngaji..
sampai tertido-tido siak!!!!! haha! it happens all the time..

ended the day with a long talk sweettalk (like bubble tea)with THE BIG ONE..

and every breadth that you would take
when you were sitting next to me,
we'll bring light into our deepest hopes , whats ur fantasy?
i had a dream ,
i dream of you..

oh what a beautiful day!! hehe

2007-09-04T23:17:00.000+08:00

like i said,

we held hands ,

and got lost together,

but somehow or rather,

fun la kn! heh

the day started out to be a lil stressful for me cause all i was thinking about early in the morning was, my summons which was due in 3 days time.. i'll be dead meat by then.and guess why? its cause im broke. as broke as a berok. maybe not really but berok uses a stick to garok and make fire using a stick to isap rokok dengan baju yang ronyok.. k non-sense, but it rhymes!

aniways, ibu then volunteered to help me pay for the summons and yea some kechings for me to get a freaking season parking. damn u meter maids!! (this is our of the post, but is a guy maid also called a maid ?)

and my freaking salary is not out yet. come on la, its been more that 2 mths and ive not gotten my salary.. dont make me do things that u dont want me to.. and u told me it be in by tomoro 2pm, if its not in yet, of if the cheque "bounce" again, then something is really2 wrong .. maybe MOM can lend a helping hand perhaps? enought whith that, was suppose to be out to help aim make his IC, but seems like not. haha.. went to Sims Dr instead, just to pay the summons cause theres no AXS machine near by. at last!! i cn park my bike at ground level! no more up-stairs for me.. makin babat la nampak2 nye.Banyak Lemak!

went to school and test results was not bad,haha..applied mechanics exams on monday sia.. shit sia bro.

okay lets skip to until after school where all the excitement comes in..muahaha!!

the big one and me was suppose to go out somewhere but we dont know where exactly so she leave it to me to decide where to go cause im the pilot aniway i guess. haha. so went out of school with dunno where to go but still dunt want to go home so we became from dunno where to go , to going the long route to bedok for dunno what ,then to harbourfront to chill at telok blanga hill but ,then to jalan confident gile sampai salah jalan, cause we wanted to go telok blanga hill but lastly and finally we end up at mount faber park which was really worth the long journey.. haha..

on the way up our ear's got blocked..why is that so?

well due to the combustion of the pressurised air when u get higher above sea level and the blablabla will blablabla ..thus. ear get blocked. TaddA!!!!

aniways, as usual snap some beautiful pictures then just chill and eat hello panda.. (which is dh kemek)

flowers from mountfaber

~my beautiful~

love you loads.

WOooooW!!!

2007-08-29T09:29:00.000+08:00

condolence to

A friends grandfather

~who had just past away ~

on the night of

nifsu sa'ban.

and the soul purpose of us living in this world was witnessed by all who works for Allah..

and all now gets down to this very last moment when you take your last breadth and return to where you really belong. but never the less we will meet again at the end of time........

*Al-fatihah

2007-08-26T02:32:00.000+08:00

its wonderful how just flying a kite could teach you a life lesson..

to be patient.

and when the wind is just nice , we let go and soar like a bird..

25-aug-2007

fire works

2007-08-19T16:06:00.000+08:00

fire works with the people was oh so beautiful.

its a small world after all..
me, nisa, wadi, nani and hisham was eating ar TMK2 beside vtc
when nani asked nisa " eh nisa muke kwn din macam hisham siak.."
mampos!!! hisham and nani are old primary school friends..
and hisham is gay! and wadi and zaini nye abang are members..
small-small world..

its raining putu-piring and bottol caps and it be so darn "leceh" to be sending orders to orchard.. shit-nup sia.

oh back to topic, the fire works was awesome, but nisa said that spain's(the day before ) was better. oh well , china did well too.. but marina was effing packo sia
. but its okay. atleast was not as bad as tekka ar.. but we got a romantic spot . romantic kappe..
we sat at a grass patch as wadi brought a tikar.(sorry ar english aku koyak..nnti aku jahit eh.)gerek ar kan ..too bad izzat couldnt be there. NONS!!!!

baby dont u ever doubt my love,

lets go though the shits together,

lets fly kite okay?

promise...

2007-08-15T21:12:00.001+08:00

love this picture loads.....

a picture paints a thousand words ..

if i knew phrase 3 years back, it b desasterous for my composition exam..

everything is going so perfact... alhamdullillah..and i dont wana change a thing now.. i thank Allah for everything i have now..

and i've learn to live life like its the last day of my life...

lets make everyday a memoriable day..

spending time with you was never a regret.

if only i could spend more time with you.

and everytime we do, the day seems to end oh so perfact...

if that anint love than i dont know what love is.. ceh.

feeling so fucking worn out tday..maybe becoz i over work my self,

and it was never because of *o* okay..

baby was so being a lil irritating but real nice towards the end.sweets..

and i keep getting sugar-rush early in the morning.. sweetness la kn.. haha..

laugh till our lungs burst, just becoz we tried wearing the hemlet terbalik.ahak!!! kecoh la seh.

karma please dont get us this time.. oh Allah, we pray that you protect us from whatever shits thrown at us..

show them what you've shown me.. syukur alhamdulillah.

2007-08-12T04:14:00.000+08:00

i'm missing u ....

one day goes by so slowly .,

and i sat at the beach .

everytime the wind blows it wispers i love you..i feel you..

but i kept missing u with every breeze..

wating till you are back in my arms...

the beach is my kind of place.. so peaceful..

calm. and tells you how beautiful life is even without money..

life is beautiful..people are beautiful..

and with every step i walk, there's a lesson to be learn, and i kept learning.

and i appreciate every single thing i have. syukur...

well.. lets us just take a moment from our lives and reflect back..

who are we to judge others?

who are they to judge us?

are they as clean as an angle?

are we?

slowly, we make our self a better person.. insyallah..

i live everyday as the fullest like its the last day of your life..

and i wana spent it wisely on my beloved one..

and with every last word i say b4 goodbye.. hope it be good...

and if i leave this earth , i'll leave it good..

and its good to hear ur voice.so soft and irrisistable.

come back soon baby..

11-aug-2007

this ray

2007-07-30T20:29:00.000+08:00

And as we sat by the sea side admiring the breeze while you were leaning against me, i paused , and you asked why .
its was just so perfect..

alhamdullillah. i thank Allah for opening my heart to you and showing me what a wonderful world you had given us.
I'm making the best and out of it and hope you open the hearts of my fellow friends too.. guide me to the right path and give me the strength to overcome all the obstacles of yours..

B... lets take things slow okay?

love you to bits..cipap

~heh~

life

2007-07-14T10:19:00.000+08:00

in life.. there's always a moment where you will come to a cross road.
its up to you to realise that crossroad, and to choose the right path..

alright! hmm. since like a million years since i blogged about something good..
well its about time..
on the brighter side of life, people are nice around me.. even my evil supervisor at pizza hut was nice as in , out of the blue , she let me off to go home at 9.20pm , when i only end work at 11.. and a bunch of people i knew had just passed their bike licence. and hisham is dang excited for dunno what reason...

ou yea, about last Thursday, hisham and me was suppose to play some song to let the teachers in charge of our Singapore poly performers . their reason to for us to come all the way back was because the are just afraid that we will play heavy metal songs. nothing to be pissed about for me, just that i was fucking sleeping in the train.. that shows how sleepy i was. and i drag my self all the way to Dover just to play and a half song because the intro of our song" I'm too late"
sounds like hope and i kept repeating singing to "hope's" lyrics and hisham is damn blur.hahah!!! but was funny ar..cause when the lights in the room was switched off, we couldn't see the teacher and Moh cause they are........u know i know..hehe...joking bebeh!

and as usual, on the way home while on the bike, me and hisham will sing like two crazy buggers that we are... its more to scream than singing. we kinda do that cause i think it relief the stress out of us.. haha..maybe.. haha

and i literally farted in front of a temasek poly student yesterday! hah!!
i got no idea what was wrong with me .. full of gas.
but me farting at a sexy temasek chick was of good intentions..
which is, to neutralise the air around her cause there was too much of carbon dioxide in the air. and its not good for you.. so some carbon monoxide would do good once in a while.. haha!!

something good is coming !haha!
and i cant wait no more!! argh!
just waiting for a call...
waiting waiting..

didn't realise that this week was flowing really fast..
before i knew it, the first week of school has ended...

and i keep thinking, is there such a thing as financial freedom?

if there is...

you will need that small breeze to fly a kite,

if you remember who used to be that small breeze......

for every time the wind blows

it whisper "i love you"

every time you feel a warm breeze brush against you,

that's the butterfly kiss i blew to you...

tested and true

2007-07-07T01:24:00.000+08:00

Superstitions arent meant for lovers
Under covers,
undiscovered is your skin
I am lonely,
please let me in .Youre probably wondering what I was proving
Are you choosing?
Am I losing you tonight?
Is it over,
over?

Are we fading?

I never wanted anything the way that I want you
But my words dont seem to matter
My words dont seem to matter
And you look at me and I can see The lies youre running too
But my words dont seem to matter
Id rather have you tested and true

Now you've had your chance
So lets try my way, its my day
To show you what youre missing,
turn around And feel the winds of change
upon your face again
The warm breath of your closest friend
Im waiting,
Im waiting

Are we fading?

Im scared we'll fall apart tonight
Under the moonlight
Im scared we'll never make it right
Under the moonlight
Take my hand and hold it tight
Hold it tight

i never wanted anithing the way that i want you..
but my words dont seem to matter,
my words don't seem to matter,
and you look at me so i can see the lies youre running too
but my words don't seem to matter,
i'd rater have it tested and true....

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and i'm chasing all my memories away,
i searching for something if i may,
and i'll close my eyes and kept thinking,
am i useless?
am i shitty?
am i losing you tonight,
or am i ever,
ever..
i'll be waiting,
i never tought it'll be this way,
it's not what i wanted too.
but it will just melt like butter.
should i even bother.

should i ever thank you for making me think,
allday , cause youwere everything,
and wondering what are you doing,
in this moment,
in this moment cause of you,
i feel lonely ,
lonely....

did you remember?
even when we're far away,
it didnt really mattered...

where ahead

2007-07-04T00:56:00.000+08:00

nothing feels the same from this night

but i let my self cry..

I'm dying now,

i just can't calm down.

and i ran thru a story in my head,

well I'm just am worried.

this time,

its turning me,

and it's just killing me..

and I'm bleeding from inside,

yet its hidden from your eyes,

and I'm just breaking down,

for you to be around..

Will we behold the key?

for the box of our treasured memories,

and let it free.....

i feel useless,

tell me i am cause i am..

and I'll thank you for that.

punch me in the face,

kick me in the nuts,

cause i deserve that..

pull me down and drop me to the ground.

eat dirt and it wouldn't matter for all that ever mattered was........

and i kept asking myself shits...

confused and ....

no one to blame but my useless self..

i love you..

and i say it three times for you to hear.

and if i had one wish...

you would know what i would wish for..

and when i feel the breeze brush pass my face,

you would know what i'm thinking..

oh god please open up my heart...

but i thank you for blessing me with cool friends..

still it feels oh so empty.

now i'm here on my knees ,

so humble , so pure, so to ask for just one last wish..

help please....

be by my side

2007-06-30T00:20:00.000+08:00

this addiction to you that i had,

grows stronger and stronger,

i can't control it cause i dont want to,

and everything that will i happen ,

i can't tell cause i don't know where this is going.

i don't have someone to capture my tears,

but for a couple of years back ,

i was high.

i was at cloud nine..

every thing that i needed i guess.

but i was wrong.

for the vow.

and i lost everything,

cause you meant everything ,

everything to me.

smiles becomes oh so difficult,

but it comes oh so sincere when by ur side..

everything bout her i adore,

her smile i can't forget,

her eyes i can't seem to ignore,

yet the vow i regret..

now as i see my future shatter,

right before my vary eyes,

i can't help but just hang on to the the sweet memories,

all those that we've left hanging..

but bellow is my arms,

just incase it ever falls,

it will fall in there.

and the warmth that we've share ,

will we feel it once more.

and we go off with nothing to bring,

cause we don't really need anithing but each other.........

well...

i just go dream...

everytime i see

you in my dreams,

i see your face,

it keeps haunting me..

i guess i miss u baby..

new song

2007-06-20T16:04:00.000+08:00

by matchbook romance..

enjoy.

i need a new chapter..

2007-06-10T11:37:00.000+08:00

and we all go thru our lives, passing every sweet and also sour moments .

and its going too fast,

but not for me for all i felt was the want to be alive.

and the only was was to be loved by alot.

someone to care about u..

we got families to do that,

but we just need more.

much for us to just have a shoulder to lean on when we need it.

but we can have a million shoulders to lean on but still feel empty

cause all we need was that special someone to be in ur heart.

and to me,

its not a want but a need.

i just want to find the right one.

its as slow as i tought ,

and yea it sucks.

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okay about whats going on , erm well, my scheduel is just full of work work and work, well except for next week , cause shattered skies will be performing at ngee ann city on the saturday and liang court on the sunday, on on the weekday we'll be jamming or so called rehersal's for us. come support us if you guys are free alright.

Bike!!!

well i think its gonna be another month for me till i get one.
and i so cant wait fot that! argh!

work was fine. as per normal, and tips rate are going really-really good.. i loike!
i loike it alot...
and the wheelie i did with the pizza bike have left me some souveniers.(how do u spell that?) but the main point is, wheelie ! haha! fun but scarry. but fun.but scarry but..........

k now its my turn to write the oh oh oh oh ho song..

oh blog oh blog kenape tade org bace mcm mane tk de org bace aku the link org,
oh aku oh aku kenape tk link org , mcm mane aku tk link org ular nk makan aku,
oh makan oh mkn kenape nk mkn aku , mcm mane aku tk makan, harge telor naik,
oh harge oh harge kenape engkau naik, macam mane aku tk naik ayam kfc bnyk kene buang sebab tk abez abeh diorg tk kasih kite bawak balik jadi ayam-ayam sume merajok beh bertelor square beh sakit and berkudis, jadi kene hanta gi clinick beh docter tk kasi discount sebab ayam tk bawak kupon . tupasal telor mahal.
oh adik oh adik kenape macam gitu , mcm mane adik tk gitu adik nk cucu.
oh cucu or cucu tengde gedeng gedeng , tengde gedeng gedeng, tengde gedeng aku!

ehbah!

i would like to thank my mom my day my post man, my poster, my yah and justifah tembilak cause i dont know him.

cheers for good day today..10-june-07.

just a walk to remember.....

2007-06-03T02:50:00.000+08:00

As the sun slowly climbs its way up the horizon, so perfact, so speachless i went..

always reminded me of the good time that we had at the beach, right after cycling or inline-skating. the wind brush our face, and i said to her, for every time you feel the gust of wind brush thru ur face, it reminds u of me , and for every gust of wind thats brushing thru mine, it reminds me of you..
.....as we held hands and everything feels right..

but ever since we walked away,
my life was a dissarray...now that "will" to move on is no longer there.. its harder than i tought..

its tough..

all the hopes and dreams that we had just shattered right infront of our very eyes..

all that i can ever do now is try to forget, that want to forget is difficult.

now is getting harder.
my vision narrowed,
my lungs filled with depressed,
and the need to breadth is lost.
its like my soul was stolen...

1year had passed...

should'nt i be moving on by now?

still its hard.

until that light i used to see, i saw it once more..

but this time its different, it was blurred , a sign of unsure,...

i just don't want to be alone anymore...

i know i'm not.. well u know what i mean u son of a bitch..okay that does not reffer to anyone .

i don't deserve to be together with her..
don't deserve her.
don't deserve a strand of her hair even.
it sucks.

and it sucks even more to realise that ur damn fucking lonely ass muthafucka is blogging about it, telling every one that i'm lonely..

I AM LONELY!!!

but what's the worst that could happen...

i need someone.. but i dont know who..

does anyone know?

sometimes i wish that god just points to the love of ur life, so i don't have to go thru all the suffering that i am going tru now...
wait, how old am i aniway?

i just 19thisyear,

and if god wants me to stay, i still got about 80more years to live..

so whats the rush?

its just that i cant hold this loneliness anymore..

now the least that i have is u..

but i juz hope things go smoothly..

i just hope..

okay now a lil sum'sum for ya'll..

so confused,
for which way should i go...
i see the light, but what can't i see u?

so let my eyes be blinded by the light,
let it hurt for what i've done i think is right...

and i was wrong,
and we lost everything,so why can't u see.
and when it all feels right,
we don't know what to do,
so baby just hold my hand ,
and maybe ,we could fly again..

tada.. a post.

29-4-07

2007-05-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

April 29 2007

much things occur today ...
started with a routine sunday activity with adib yan zac which is meet at tmk,

have breakfast and then to syarhan,

which we call it 'FR'as uztaz Fahrulrazi usually leads us.Thus, FR.
okay, and a lil story about greed from him..

One day, Nabi Ise a.s went on a hike across a dessert with a yahudi to get to the another town.so in order to go for a long hike,
they both brought them self each breads.
Nabi Ise a.s brought only one bread with him,
while the yahudi brought 2.
Nabi Ise a.s said to the
yahudi:We will just stop by a mosque so that i could perform my solat ,
then we have our break.

the yahudi agreed .they stopped by a mosque, and nabi Ise a.s told him that he'll perform his prayers then he'll eat that one piece of bread he has packed for the trip together with him.so he performed his prayers, while the yahudi sat outside the mosque thinking about the 2nd bread he had packed.
Yuhudi: If ise know that i have 2 pieces of bread, we'll for sure be sharing that 2nd piece of bread. okay then, b4 he sees it, i'll just eat the the 2nd piece first.
So nabi Ise a.s came back eat together with that yahudi.he takes out that only piece of bread he had packed while the yahudi takes out the remaining piece of bread left.then Ise a.s asked, Nabi Ise a.s: what happened to the 2nd piece of bread that u had just now?
then the yahudi answered,yahudi: huh? i only had one. I swear to Allah that i only had one with me from the start. without realising that Nabi Ise A.s knows that he has 2 bread all along.it's Nabi Ise's a.s mukjizat from Allah s.w.t.
Nabi ise just kept quiet and ate his bread before they sat of for their journey .
they kept walking and walking for miles and soon enough, they feel hungry.right when thay do, a creature from the the sandy dunes appear out of no where, and the yahudi straight away tried to catch is so that they could eat , but i ran away further.the exhausted stopped and looked a Ise.Nabi Ise just calmly called that creature to him, And its no suprise to Ise, it came to him, but that yahudi was amazed by what Nabi Muse had just did.So he said,
yahudi: Ise!wonderful,wonderful,wondeful !that was amazing ! how did you do it? i ran as fast as i could but i could'nt catch it, but you simply called it but i came.
then Nabi ise replied,
Nabi Ise a.s: its Allah s.w.t blessing for me. but that's not amazing at all, what's amazing was, what happen to the second piece of bread that u had in ur beg just now?
yahudi: I swear to god , i only had one piece of bread all along.
Nabi Ise just kept it to him self, and "sembelih" the creature.(okay-okay, the creature is some what like a dessert goat or something.)
so they rested then set off to their journey till they came across a huge river which they have to cross.
Yahudi:how are we suppose to get to the to our destination without crossing the river?
Nabi Ise just grabbed the yahudi's hand and just simply walk on water across the river.
Mr yahudi is out of words,and just said,
yahudi: wonderful,wonderful,wonderful!Amazing! how did you do it?
Nabi Ise a.s: it's a blessing from Allah s.w.t .but thats not amazing at all. what's amazing is that what had happened to that 2nd piece of bread u had just now?
yahudi: Again I SWEAR to ALLah that i only had one bread all along.(refusing to tell the truth.)
like always, Nabi Ise just kept it to him self and continued on his journey.
they kept on walking till they came across 3 piles of gold in the middle of the dessert.
the yahudi was overjoyed.
Nabi Ise a.s then decide to split it into evenly.
so it's one pile for him self, one pile for the yahudiand the last pile for the owner of the 2nd piece of bread.
and without hessitation, the yahudi admited that he had the 2nd piece of bread and toldnabi ise the story.
Nabi Ise a.s , then said, if that's so, then u can take all 3 piles of gold. Mr yahudi was overjoyed that he could have all the gold .
nabi Ise a.s then just left him alone with the piles of gold.
yahudi kept on celebating till he realised that he has a huge problem.
Transporting of the golds.
it too heavy to be carried and too precious to be left.
so on came 3 robbers, to come a rob the yahudi,
Trying to protect his possesions, the yahudi was then, killed by the robbers.
lesson learned.
1)don't tell a lie.. remember this story.
2) only take what ever is enough for u. don't be greedy.
thanks to his greed, the yahudi is dead.
okay-okay, take note yah..
k about my day,
finished FR so we sat off to sim lim tower's cause zac wants to get something.on the way there, we made friends with an apek. apek: lu mau pegi sim lim ma?me: ar yah. turon mane eh?apek: ouu lu tulon two bustop lagi la.me:ouu okay-okay, thanks ar. lu mau pegi mana?apek:oh gua mau pegi generel hospital, kawan gua masok la.
okay crap, then at sim lim, saw alot of cool stuff, plus there's alot of flyers given to us.and me, being "muke paper" just take all the flyers that i could.
okay its not that i love papers , its juz i wana make the people giving the flyers have an easier life.boring sia.
palyed PS3. okay la kn.. haha..
okay, then makan at QI JI .sort of like banquet but most chinese food.halal la..they got nice laksa.slurp. the same place where me and etty went to eat at.
then off to shaw shopping mall cause adib want to get something at starbucks.end up we sat there drink, chill,think of inovative ideas.then fit came to join us. and again, we drink and chill, talk2. then ungs.hmm sounds kinda boring but okay la kn.
so we're done with drinking at starbucks,don't know where to go.
alot of crazy ideas came across our minds, like,
taking a bus ride to nowhere or maybe to some forest and feed the monkeys,or going to harbourfornt to see sentosa, or go survey bikes, or just chill and look at chicks. haha!
sat out side the mall for quite sometime, then we decided to just follow anyone who is wearing green.but again the plan failed. cause no one is wearing green.
so we decided to go to city link to juz play cards and chill, but we end up at suntec city playing dare ordare.dang takde keje sia..ahak!
yan's dare was to go up to a stranger and ask" untie where bedok eh?"adib's dare was to go to a ladies bad shop ,take a ladies bag and ask the sales assistant "hey does this look good on me?"mine was simple and sweet, kiss the statue's boobie wearing a bikini which is in the middle of the walkway..
damn stupid ar.. but fun, so hell yea.
then walk-walk till we reach the fountain of doom...no actually it's the fountain of wealth, then juz sat there and ungs again.
tot of going to esplanade and play cards but then i had a dejavu and i think something bad was going happen today..adib decided to just call it a day..
so went via city link to get to city hall mrt, but than we stopped by an fairly creative shop i must say..alot of creative stuff that caught our eyes. then help adib to get decide on some stuff.then went home. but then again decided to take 61 instead cause all of us don't want to go home.
on our way out from city hall mrt, we saw a number of pple making a scene in at the bottom of the staircase..
and as my feelings were right, this guy(indonesian or philipine i think(how do u spell philipino?)) have his face full of blood and was on the floor. blood just spread across the floor , due to the gash he had on his lips nose and fore head. he must have fallen while rushing down the stairs to catch his train.grrrrrrrrrrrrusome la sia!
told u i had a bad feeling something bad is going to happen..just that i didnt know what.if only i could know..hmm...
and we called it a day..
aniway, lately i've been having dreams of flying and having a dragon as a pet..its freaking cute.like the one u see on the movie eragon.and i'm flying like chris angel.and my pet dragon cant fly high..
k mepek ar. .and sorry abt the longpost.. just got nothing to do now.takecare dudes.

random toughts..

2007-04-23T20:53:00.000+08:00

As we grow older,
the feelings gets older too..

we tend to look otherwise...

feel different..

maybe you just feel damn lazy for all this.

i dont know what's happening but,

maybe its just a phase i'm going thru..

so i don't mind at all..

i got it clear about what i want ..

what my future to be like,

but what i do now, issnt that clear at all...

my intentions in this presence ain't how i think it should be like..

well, i'm juz living life as it is..

with something missing in my life..

and i think back...

its not the bikes,

not the people,

maybe even not the girls..

i dont know...

i miz that holy one....

the creater...

i know it may sound funny in a way..

how the hell could anione missed god?

well, i'm feeling it now...

how all this useless talk about useless subjects ,

just struck back at the back of ur head...

and makes u wonder..

and love is more than love if you ever tot of it..

and this is ohh soo random...

but maybe, something for ya'll to think about...

bless u all......

random

2007-04-16T20:22:00.000+08:00

+)knees weaken, and with every breadth i take seems so suffering.

h)every inch of my of my body says its surrender,

@)but my soul still push me to go on to please others..

+)just this bit will do..

-)but that night..

w)tho it seems so dull,

@)tho i seems so tipsy to me,

1)tho my every step was a fight so that i could spend that night with...

k)u make it special..

-)and i lay on that shoulder,

4)surrendering all my energy ,

r)for i know that, that night was soon to end..

m)we said our boodbye..

-)my ,shouldnt that be perfact?

+)till i recalled about the memories..

@)how we used to say goodbye..

m)how goodbye seems to be the hardest..

p)how letting go of those hands that

-)seems to fit just right with mine is yet so difficult..

i)i hold onto evevy memory..

n)and now i stand here with all my toughts to share...
+)

~Go figure~

~+3Q(_)1R0 H3s+@ 1n+3rN1+y~

2007-04-05T00:03:00.000+08:00

Oh where oh where

can my baby be

The Lord took her away from me

She's gone to heaven so

I got to be good

So I can see my baby when I leave this world......

We were out

on a date in my daddy's car

We hadn't driven

very far

There in the road straight up ahead

A car was stalled the engine was dead

I couldn't stop so I swerved to the right

I'll never forget the sound that night

The screaming tires the busting glass

The painful scream that I heard last......

When I woke up the rain was pouring down

There were people standing all around

Something warm flowing through my eyes

But somehow I found my baby that night

I lifted her head she looked at me and said

Hold me darling just a little while

I held her close

I kissed her our last kiss

I found the love t

hat I knew i have missed

Well now she's gone

even though I hold her tight

I lost my love my life that night

so ohh where the hell can my baby be?

where.....

ohh where......

i miz her loads......

my world revolves around lonely

2007-03-24T09:37:00.000+08:00

and it seems like everything is right the way it is... not..

as knew, it was me all along..what cant i be happy as in both inside and outside?
a curse perhaps?

nope , i dont believe in curse...

but what did i do wrong .....
part did i missed out..
and the more i think of it the more i i felt sick...

but i cant help it but accept the fact that i'm juz lonely..

no wait , where did all mua friends go...
they are fine... by my side always...

but juz when u need that extra care and concern, its not there..

and maybe during ur busy scheduel, u received a text msg saying that she loves you... i missed those times...
and even when i told u that the word love does not bring a thing to my heart,
you still told me that you loved me..
and the happy times when i think about it sends tears down my eyes..

my world revolves around lonely....

who are you now?
are you still the same or did you change some how.
what do yo do?
from this very moment when i think of you..
and when i'm looking back..
how we were young and stupid..
do you remember that?

i try to fight it ,
cant deny it,
I JUST CAN'T LET YOU GO.!

well i still need you.
i still care aBOUT you,
tough everything;s bein said and done.......
i still feel you,
like i'm right beside you....
but still no word,.
no word from you...

Menggigil tubuh ini
Melihat kau bersamanya
Tergamam aku tak terkata
Meraung di jiwa

Puas ku pertahankan
Cinta kita sejak dulu
Tapi sayang Sikit pun tidak
Menghargai cintaku

Sia-sia saja
Pengorbanan dan kesetiaanku ini
Ku sangka kau permata
Rupanya duri paling berbisa
Ku pasrah dan berdoa
Semoga tabah jiwaku
Oh... tetapi bagaimana
Nak ku lawan Jiwa yang siksa

Ke mana arah hendak ku tuju
Bila hatiku rindu padamu
Hendakku cari tapi tak guna
Kau bahagia dengan si dia

Dikamar sepi aku termenung
Terbayang bayang kenangan kita
Tidak ku sangka kau
Tergamak pergi Saat ku masih perlukan mu.......

you..

2007-03-14T20:19:00.000+08:00

would you look into this eyes,

as sore as it seem.

this tears,

that i teared tonight..

And you tought i'm okay..

i had a dream of you..

you were holding me tight..

i'd wish that you'll

be mine..

tonight .

and the rest of my life..

thru these eyes,

i can see.

yet your smile ,

is what i seek..

soo tired of it..

hope one day you will see,

the way i see you in me.

you're the one for me.......

i could stand bt you for eterntity,

even if i'll be an unknown entity....

when i'm without you,

i'm feeling avoid..

then i'm with you,

i'm feeling a woe..

if i were to choose between those two,

i'd rather live my life in pain with you..

all i want to do is to hold u tight,

all i want to hear is that you care..

you,re like a dream in reality,

could barely remember the beginning and never knowing the ending......

in i'm soo sick of this....

every time...

2007-03-11T00:12:00.000+08:00

everytime i listen to this song,

it reminds me of..

you..

always....

if only if have that special someone to show my care and concern...

i'll bring her to all the places we could go..

go to the beach to have a picnic..

take a walk by the river..

chill by the bay..

take a boat ride..

do the reverse bungie..

chill at siloso beach..

see her every time i could..

treasure her always....

argh..

i'd wish..

still.. hmm.. wish will rarely come true..

and i juz cant wait to get my bike...

maybe by may.. hopefully....

and yeah...

outing with mannan .qader, aidil and amma

was great..

the show 300 was superb..

love the grafics..

the sound effects.

the story line.

and mannan is, as always , a crazy hore..haha

nan ko slut sak.. haha

i don't know where to go tomorrow.. hmm ..

and lastly......

POOM!

life

2007-03-05T22:10:00.000+08:00

what i went thru.....

hmmm life been, some what mare excitement...

fall out boy concert, recording, last day at work blablabla..

alright , fall out boy concert was great.
me hisham nan and martin and his gf..

some stupid things that happen..

some untie, goes to the concert, and juz like .argh! bengap!

i mean, imagine going to a concert then being ask to keep quiet and behave ur self by someone.

this is a fucking concert god dammit. go to chuch la for god's sake..

then mannan was accused of being a pervert..

matin was molested by a fat bitch..

his gf, god braces,

hisham got scolded for elbowing a lady.

i was molested my a huge booby.. say's mannan..haha

and etc..

but overall fun for a fall out boy concert.haha

mosh and body surf! gerek!

pictures soon..

last day at work was urtterly EMO! haha.. oh well, what can i say, they juz love me.. haha!

aniways ,recording goes well ar..

sounds better i must say.. much more clearer.. so if anione wants the cd it be juz 2 bucks alright.. enough for us to buy nasi ayam k.. thanks... hehe!

ar what else to look foward to that juz my bike now..k maybe a next jamming session. of maybe a next performance..
arr, whatever la eh..

end.

so that is that..

2007-02-24T11:56:00.000+08:00

so i'm back from my holiday to KL.

tought to just clear my mind, but yea, didnt do that much.
but still i had fun with my fams and cuzz . its been long since we go for a trip together. damn..

all the way during the trip, i keep playing that 3 songs i sent u.. damn that again..
been triying to get over it.. hopefully i do...

on the brighter side of life..

i finally pass my bike lisence...
now i'm looking 4ward to get my bike.. yea..when oh when..

someone juz pass my number to some electronical engineering gurl..
i wonder who was it..
and all i could tink of is her..
argh. god help me in this..

ohoh next week probably be going for a recording session .
had a so called band meeting yesterday, and maybe we be selling our songs for a low price ar ofcourse...cant wait..

and oh yea. if anione has ani idea of a logo for our band, please kindly tag yah..
yey.

hies...

kk see if anyone of you could recognise this lyrics..

i never felt like this before

the way you look into my eyes..

i always see a reason...

it never fails to make me smile

hope we could walk a thousand miles..

and conquer all this fear

INSIDE

i wont lie..

(won't lie)

cause its not my thing...

and all the plans that we could do,

we will survire!!

wohouwo!!

will

survive!(x2)

Right now!

WE will!

SUrvive!!!

grrr

And all the faces that we knew,

the people that we knew,

is not the same one..

and all the voices that we know ,

the voices that we hear,

it will turn our brains

INSIDE

i wont lie

(wont lie!)

cause its not my thing..

and all the plans that we could do..

WE will SURVIVE!

wohouwo !

will survive!(x2)

Right now!
WE will!
SUrvive!!!

and all the voices that we hear

the voices that we hear,

it will turn or brain inside

and all the voices that we hear,

the voices that we hear, it will turn or brains in side....

like we never felt before...

and to the day we spend,

the chilling night we've been,

i swear i'd take your hand,

and we will survive!!!

AGRRRRRR!!!

senang la eh...

ps: i don't know how to feel now.ultra confused.

not in the mood..i guess...

2007-02-17T23:44:00.000+08:00

'k basicly...

i'm in no mood for anithing..
someone is stupid enough to go cut his wrist for god knows why...
i swear if he do it again, in go break anithing he is doing it with then give him
an upper-cut..

well..feel like screeming at the top of my lungs and say .."BEEP* YOu!!"

argh...
every inch of my soul says i love.....
i hope this goes away as quickly as possible..

i'm getting restless but at the same time in no mood to do anithing...

"contradicting..."

im off to KL by dusk..
hope i could just forget everything ..
oh god' please fill my heart with happiness n joy..

then gimme a bike..

damn.. all im looking foward to is my bike now...
THATS ALL...grrrr.

...well....

hmm... (to u know who u are)

take good care of your self okay...
i cnt do anithing abt the present and i juz cant throw away the past..
for that 2 years was the best days of my life despite everything bad..
alot to look foward to, suprises, and urges to suprise u...never ever did u do stuff do make u feel bad.. all the things that i do was for the sake of us...

who knows.... maybe my dear........................maybe.

Didn't you want to hear

The sound of all the places we could go

Do you fear

The expressions on the faces we don't know

It's a cold hard road when you wake up

And I don't think that I

Have the strength to let you go

Maybe it's just me,

Couldn't you believe

That everything I said and did,

wasn't just deceiving

And the tear in your eye,

and your calm hard face

Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place ....

There goes my ring

It might as well have been shattered

And I'm here to sing

About the things that mattered

About the things that made us feel alive for oh so long

About the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong

Maybe it's just me,

Couldn't you believe

That everything I said and did,

wasn't just deceiving

And the tear in your eye,

and your calm hard face

Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

And someday,

I promise I'll be gone

And someday,

I might even sing this song

To you,

I might even sing this song,

to you,

to you

And I was crying alone tonight

And I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you

So just come back we'll make it better

So just come back I'll make it better than it ever was x2

Maybe it's just me,

Couldn't you believe

That everything I said and did,

wasn't just deceiving

And the tear in your eye,

and your calm hard face

Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place ...

Maybe it's just me,

Couldn't you believe

That everything I said and did,

wasn't just deceiving

And the tear in your eye,

and your calm hard face

Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

(I want it all, Don't leave right now)

(I'll give you everything)

maybe..

just for you know who you are...

i'm so sorry but i miss you... alot..

i'll just be patient for now....

damn...

2007-02-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

damn.. i'd wish i have one more chance to prove that to you..

if only i could turn back time.....

damn.

complicated...

2007-02-13T20:07:00.000+08:00

my life is geting more complicated then ever...

The more i think,

the the more depressed i get.

The more i try to forget,

the more complicated it gets..

i should stop questioning things right now..

i'm so sorry that its the cause of me..

even if u don't feel so,

i do.

well..

then things get better,

to me,

maybe worst..

but,

i just want to be happy..

i had this crazy idea of getting back together..

but u know i know,

its juz difficult..

i don't want you to break that sweet relationship..

its like breaking a fairy tale..maybe...

it's seems so perfact between yall..

last night i had another crazy dream..

i dreamt of you..

i felt it.. i didnt want to wake up cause,

i know when i do,

it would just end there..

maybe i just want you back..

but at the same time ,

i don't wana hurt anybody..

well i juz could'nt get all the things that i want..

hope theres someone like you,

that i find one day..

that kiss kept playing in my sleep...

but i juz cant let this fraction of sadness,

overrule my happiness..

maybe i wont show..

maybe you would know...

and every time u felt diff,

i feel u..

every time theres something that

does not go right ,

i know..

is this a sign of connection ..

5 words to end it off with..

Lets,

Not,

Make,

Things,

.........Complicated..........

plain white T's

2007-02-10T16:54:00.000+08:00

for you.....

a lonely september.....

"I'm sittin' here all by myself

just tryin' to think of something to do..

Tryin' to think of something, anything

just to keep me from thinking of you..

But you know it's not working out

'cause you're all that's on my mind....

One thought of you is all it takes

to leave the rest of the world behind.....

Well I didn't mean for this to go,,

as far as it did

And I didn't mean to get so close,

and share what we did

And I didn't mean to fall in love,

but I did

And you didn't mean to love me back,

but I know you did...

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself

that you're not the one for me..

But the more I think, the less I believe it

and the more I want you here with me...

You know the holidays are coming up

I don't want to spend them alone...

Memories of Christmas time with you

will just kill me if I'm on my own...

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did

And I didn't mean to get so close,

and share what we did

And I didn't mean to fall in love,

but I did

And you didn't mean to love me back..

I know it's not the smartest thing to do

we just can't seem to get it right,

But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight

One more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar...

But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far...

I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you...

Oh please, baby won't you take my hand

we've got nothing left to prove...

Well I didn't mean for this to go

as far as it did..

And I didn't mean to get so close

and share what we did..

And I didn't mean to fall in love,

but I did..

And you didn't mean to love me back,

but I know you did..

And I didn't mean to meet you then

we were just kids...

And I didn't mean to give you chills

the way that I kiss...

And I didn't mean to fall in love,

but I did

And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did..

Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did

No,

you didn't mean to love me back

But you did...

well juz some ssong that reminds me of someone..

myself........

that walk...

2007-02-06T22:05:00.000+08:00

let me juz summarise today... sweet.. indeed a sweet day..even so and so.. i wont tell. but its just a sweet2 day.. start and end..

that memorial walk..

those meaningful conversations...

that short hair and sweet2 voice..

that same2 route....

that smile u gave me everytime we said good bye..

that smile i had walking back hm after i accompanied u home ..

well... can't forget those times...

....................................................................................................................................

have u ever felt like giving up?
have you ever regretted making a decision?

dang.. every inch of my body thinks i should give up.. but y didnt i?
i mean how hard can it be right?
it may look easy... but only god knows...

the thing you kept from me i know..
i kept quiet..
hoping one fine day u would open up to tell the truth..
i won't be angry nor jealous ..
just dissappointed...
i waited for a respond..
no different from waiting for a respond from a wall..
i felt numb,
all-of-a-suddent..
i see a light , but i could never reach it.
i think i could,
but god juz has other plans for me..
i'm back to accepting what faith has in store for me..
maybe you are just not the one for me i guess..
i've tried..
i know u've tried..
we tried..
it just did'nt work out i think..
all i'd ever wanted from u was to show that u really2 care..seems tat u don't ..
maybe deep inside u did..
well you should have let it out...
or like i've said, there was really none to start it of with..
maybe...
and all this while, ive been using the term , i think and maybe..
cause u know why?
i'm just confused..
confused for you..
u understand..
hope you do..
maybe this time i would turn back ..understand the situation cause i don't want my ego to thake the best of me..i don't want to be like him..
and the best feeling i had after a long2 time was today....
hope you know who you are and hope YOU know who you are...

i miss.............................................................................................................................

and the things i'm looking foward to is just getting my QDl, a bike, getting promoted, completing my higher nitec,a recording and someone sweet out there to fill the spaces...

in the mean time... more gigs please.......

post performance..

2007-01-29T09:53:00.000+08:00

yesterday was shattered skies second performance..
and as predicted by us, we will kill the crowd
cause most of them (the bands) are playing those types
of screem2,gore2, metal genre..
but to hell to them and cheers to those who
stood there there in front of the stage to support
us...really appreciate it man.. and aniways...
the fact that the crowd is not much,
still didnt stop us from having fun.. haha.. well..
some suprises here and there..
u even lied abt ur nenek huh?
nnti ur nenek betol2 pegi brunei baru tau...
but still it was hah.sweet.
n its good to see an old friend again...

well, about our performance, its really diff from the rest of the bands la, cause its, a lil more softer.. haha..

okay! i think im done with performing at gashaus... haha seriously..

post performance feelings was hmmm.. wah.. actually about our
performance i tot is was really fine.. we hav fun and all so yea..
but something in me that say's im not okay...
and the worst part of it was that, im was not sure wtf it is..

hmm sometimes i wonder....am i there yet..?
am i even close to being with you..?
or am i still going too fast?
am i too late?
am i going in right pace?
are all the signs for me?
or is it just lyrics or is it hints?
i dont know where to start or what to do.....
oh god show me something......

and stil i wonder...after having that talk with mannan,
i keep wondering if what ive been thinking are really obstacles or is it juz obstacles i made to make life more complicated for my self?

then it hit me....

soo many question ive been asking my self... and ive realise that im not my usual self..
i have to start answering ,not questioning.. or in fact going to what i believe without hesitation...

still i really wana know how u feel...

please.....

okay .........

hmm...

yah.. pictures of performance , i will post soon alright! and aniway.......

what did mimi say to sally?

mimimimimimimimi...

okay!..,... oh so lame fahkrudin.

haha...

i;m stuck at practical 7! shit.. well atlast ive got my pay, so yea, can go book . weeeeee!!!
and im so siked abt that bike.. grrrrr.......cpt2 pass la kn...... i;m going down to bbdc today i guess.. gona go book for practical b4 my pdl expires.. haha.. better not sia...hosayliao ar....

and i cant wait to jamm again.. hies... basiclly i'm really not in the mood for school yet... but what to do.. haha..motivate me man. !

alright i'm done here... and thanks again to all who came down to support us alright!!!!! dude,dudette, i love u guys man!!

wah!!2 day to performance..!!

2007-01-26T09:09:00.000+08:00

okay!! as u pple juz realised.. ive change the irritating song into this pussy song! wee.

well its was my fav. song okay.. ohh wel..haha.. i miss u like crazy..

emo shit song...

okay2.. what happen lately...

-been working yest.. matin pop out of nowhere.. haha..hmm..
did closing so i woke up late.. so yea..

-skipped school

-later on going to woodlands..

hmm.. okay,.. every time i do this , i feel that this blog is pointless.. but then again.. wait.. no, then again..

k ani riddles anione?

hmm , why did the one handed man cross the road?
cause she wants to get to the second hand shop? mike shop maybe.. haha.

hmm, why did the ice kacang untie asked me back, "hot or cold" when i said to her i want one ice chengteng..?
- why eh? mybe the is a hot ice chengteng? but then again. wit no. no then again.

..

aniways.. lately life has been going on as per normal... rainy day..cold..

hies... god knows, why im sarcastic..

here are some lyrics..

Hope..

what if i told you its true...
would'nt itbe shocking for you...
why do i feel insecure?

why can't i take this animore?
does it matter at all?
does it matter at all?

you give me hope so i waited for time,
cause i know you wer'nt ready for me,
still i can feel,
we could never be..

now tell me,
why can't you show me how you feel?
i know, there's juz none to start it off with..

the walk while you were by side,
you held my hand hoping i'll grip tight..
its juz difficult..
that's why i didnt..

you gave me hope so waited for time,
cause i know you wernt ready for me,
still i can feel,
we could never be..

now it seems that you're running from me
what should i do,
please someone tell me..
what should i do, what should i do...

i juz wana tell you....

you gave me hope so waited for time,
cause i know you wernt ready for me,
still i can feel,we could never be..

my arm's around your body.,
your eyes gives the deffination of beauty..
i mean it although.. it takes time for you to fall for me..
your my one and only....

there you go.. an acoustic song by me and aim..
yah.

hmm..i was fairly suprised when one of my friend text me , feeling depressed, and ask me
" eh, can i have your lyrics for i'm too late? aku tengah pasrah ah.." haha!

dang.. i didnt know that that song is damn emotional..(emoticon);)

so here;s the lyrics for i'm too late..

when i see you,
i know that you were too ,
out of my lead..

but atlast..
i finally, found the courage..
to step up to you.
to tell you that i,
i kindda like you..

and here i am,
i singing you this song.
atleast you know now, atleast i know,
i'm just too late..
and here i am,
i'm singing you this song.
atleast you know now, atleast i know,
i'm just too late..

so atlast, we went out..
we went to the funfair..
and went up on the fairest wheel.(how ever do u spell that?)

atlast i finally can see the reason..
well its juz love at first sight..

as you look into my eyes,
but it does'nt matter at all.
cause i'm just a friend in youre eyes....

and here i am,
i singing you this song.
atleast you know now, atleast i know,
i'm just too late..
and here i am,
i'm singing you this song.
atleast you know now,
atleast i know,
i'm just too late..

..and here i am...
singing you this song..
atleast you know now, atleast i know ,i'm just too late..
when i'm alone..
i'm just staring at the ceiling..
thinking about, this time, when i'm juz too late,
and i can't hang on....

and here i am,
i singing you this song.
atleast you know now,
atleast i know,
i'm just too late..
and here i am,
i'm singing you this song.
atleast you know now,
atleast i know,
i'm just too late..

..I'm too late..just too late...

there you go... a simple song by shattered skies...

k i don't know what else to blog animore...

ou yah.. please do come to support us okay...this sunday.. gashaus..2pm to late.. will, cnfirm
when is our slot..tix from us will be 8bucks.. on the door will be 12bucks.. so come find me if you need some.. i only left with 10 tix in my hand..
up for grabs?

point less..

2007-01-21T00:59:00.000+08:00

okay2... i'll update okay..

what happened lately.. Singapore vs laos.. 11-0..

and what happened lately. singapore vs indon ...2-2..

well. the highlight of that day was going with u know who, which turns out to be a tragic ending for me...

reached toapayoh at 1140 when the last bus home was at 1130.. dang...(note: time are all in pm)

luckily my homie was arnd .. so yea..

if not ill be crawling hm.. yah i got no money.. why?

and things are getting irritating.. i cant work properly.. kept giving customers the stink eye..
.

last night went to plaplapla.. then cycle to plaplapla..

didnt sleep till plaplapla...

n im a walking zombie.. still got time n energy to blog but my eyes is half open..

so jubo.

i wana join akido so i can plaplapla..i think its cool..

some pple juz stop caring.. including me..

some pple juz stand thier line to be ego..including me.

i saw nurul maideen..

have u heard the new spore cheer..? it goes like this.."ooooooooooooooo chanmalichan oooooooooooooooooo."

do u know that patric was a genius... ?

told u its getting as pointless as ever.. and im too darn lazy to change the music...
can someone please ask how my day was.. fuck. this is soo awkward seh...

and pointless.. like i said.. who cares?

2006-12-25T15:30:00.000+08:00

Alright!!!, first and foremost, i would like to thank on behalf of ShatteredSkies, every one who came down to gashaus yesterday evening to support us.. thanks alot guys.. u guys were really great!!! and yea....

To ibu, kak ngah and kak sri,
Thanks a million for ya support.. especially ibu.. hehe! u rock!muaks!

well aniways, was so glad to see such a number of pple supporting us...
thanks again you guys!

and shattered skies... u were awesome!!!!! haha! not bad 4 ya first time huh...hehe...

so heres a lil sum2 from the gig.. more to come...

me and in the front row we have justin and his awesome friend, farid..
hisham .. and at the front we have his brother..and cuzz.
and azhar(the one in black,with short hair that looks like gay.hehe!)thanks alot for ur awesome support..

and guess what! for the first time ever i'd body surf! haha! i love that feeling......

can't wait for the next gig..

and have u guys ever tot that someone could even say the word yishun in such a sexy way that melts u right down to ur pants.....dang.. haha!!

wee..

2006-12-19T11:56:00.000+08:00

hey yah... now im back .. n i got a new note bok.. how cool is that.. yea...
hmm..
so lately been bz with work n stuff..
im stuck at prac 7 cause im short of cash.. how uncool is that..

juz did a performance with minus negative , last friday, and it was awesome i must say...

and the upcomming performance this sunday at gashaus with the shattered skies, really worries me a lil... i mean we havent been really practicing.. aniway, lets juz have fun lah..
at least it not my first time to perform as vocals since last fri... yea..

hope everything goes wel...

fix2
.eat2.
gelato.
text.
worry2.
hmm2..
n yea... mannan n his sports management friends wants me to perform something for their chalet tonite.. whatthe hell.. the least i would do is sing the "shazy boi" song..

cheers to that...

and the name din, sounds so, "mat"

PDL!!

2006-11-30T13:08:00.000+08:00

i'm gona apply 4 it today.. yea..n salarry was as expected..dang..dats okay... not im a rush lah. that scrambler is cool.. hmm..still dont know lah...

juz had breakfastbut who cares..

i'm hungry... who cares?

nyah!!

gelato is still fun!

mr gelato ..kk

i kindafind thig blog pointless than ever...bleah......

emo?

2006-11-23T01:01:00.000+08:00

ive read something at the busstop. well. kinda pulls me back to earth after reading..

hmm.. as we see. we are all studying to have a better future..
trying to live a hoping to afford all the materials we muthafukars want..
hmm.. i got only one thing to say ..
we are all going to die sooner or later....
dig on that and the grave we are going to be in, will the be not even a single cent..
damn in starting to sound like yoda...

i dont get it..
every time im down..the only reason is that its because of love..
why? i dont fucking know..
n one thing i noticed lately is that i tend to curse more often.. damn...
fuck that lah..
i'm feeling emo.
fuck that..

n this song we wrote juz make me emo'er..
cause its nice i think...

alright.. i wont tell about my day cause only god knows how my day has been.

people around me are getting nicer.. hehe.. thats the best thing about life is the people around u..

well ... arhh..otak mati arg.. nk tulis ape pn tk tau..
argh mengumpat ar..

kk..korang nk tau tk? angelina joli kn... bulu ketiak dier kn... split ends seh... rabak u.(-with hand action-)..

k enuf ar eh... hies..

dear diary.. ahak-

i'm back and now at practical 6..plaplapla!

2006-11-14T13:16:00.000+08:00

Alright.. im back...hmm.. i tot no one reads this blog.. so im updating it cause of popular demand..plaplapla... aniways life had never been better.. nuthing to wine abt.. nothing to be angry abt.. juz disappointed ...cause somepeeps didnt come along when jalan raye..but thats okaylah.. still had fun..

work is gerek asusual.. kinda miz working with some peeps..but dont need to name it all , cause its gona make it look like a fucking grammy awards nominee or how ever u spell that.....

n yay!! i juz passed my 5.2practical.. but dang my freaking evaluation has expired so have to take it again a i passed it again recently... so yea, having my RTT next thursday.. juz cnt wait..

actually feeling excited.. but dont know why..hmmm.. wierd..n i cant go to rugby cause im working ... not really sick of it yet la cause itsbeen fun always...

ouu yeah... jalan raye was awesome... first with the alkhaff dudes..then went with the wak joffers .. and a coupleof funny things happen ..which i dont know what.. ahak..kk..

and i keep thinking of bikes .......

lambretta...vespa?? yea...

aniways ..hmm...dont know if this is a bad news or a good news...but hmm...,.kk..
my parents know that im smoking... shit..hmm..i dont know how to feel exactly ..on one hand they think im a bad child cause i smoke..but on the other hand atleast they know and my dad smokesaniway what..so whatsthe whoohaa?

im still myself.... i didnt smoke, im fahkrudin..
i smoke , im still fahkrudin..

i'm still the same fahkrudin u brought up since young....i still love u guys the same way...

kk i still think its not much of a big deal lah... so yeah...

and to u.. hope u have a better match in the futureokay..i bet u will..

n to bebeh.. i think you shouldmiz me..ahak!! muah...

"what if im a millionair?"
hmmm...cool.....insyaallah.....

i can(t) wait!!

2006-09-23T02:17:00.000+08:00

kk whats better then having a suprise ?

having 2 suprises ahak!

k i juz cant wait.. im soso impatient. i know.. but dang the suspense is killing me man.. dang.. saw hafiza with hafizah juz now at my work place..
asusual, cause they want free gelato..
so i gave then the usual..
actually juz wanted to c her and pass the camera to her.. so yeayea..
and do i look good in uniform?
hmm i dun reali think so but i like the uniform lah.. cool..
but the hat got to go.. ahak! so saw a couple of peeps i know juz now..

and serving the customers have not been funner!
especially with farid yan and imran around!

and whats with chick's nowadays?
want to date a guy from gelatissimo juz to get free gelato every day?!
ahak! sorry dear ! was not refering to you...

kk. theres this 4 malay girls and they were like telling me the flavour they wanted for their 3 flavoured cup..so i listen keenly.. then out of the blue this chick juz asked if im sinlge or nt..

chick: hey is the veronese choc fat free?

me: yes its 90% fat free..

chick: are u single?

me: huh? okay .. y u wana know?

chick: ou juz want to date u so i could get free gelato..lalala.

me:arrr.. okay the veronese choc is 90% fat free! ahak!

then suddently maid popped out of the blue! ahak!
i have no idea y they call her maid!

F all of u who calls her maid!! F u man..!!!
i love my maid!!! and im proud of it ..argh!!!!! ahak!

and im soso cant wait 4 the suprise.. i look like a kid when im impatient..dang..

love my lady lumps!

dinner at breeks.hehe

2006-09-21T01:08:00.000+08:00

dang.. nvr tot that i wud be eating at breeks..

actually was a li bit reluctant cause of the price. but then..she was..hehe..okay2..

sweet things has happened tonight..walk to orchard..

took choc hazel nut gelato, and she went nuts.ahak!

damn im working again tomoro..

wait why damn? its my home after all..

toys'r'us is awesome.. robo raptor is cool..

elmo is cute..

polly is lame..
lego is the best..

this is the song. lala lala..
of elmo's world..
lala lala lala lala,
elmo's world..
emlo loves his gold fish, his crayons too...
tHATS ELMO"S WORLD!!!!

..
hey wana know some thing..

some one told me i look sexy in ma gelatissimo uniform.. ahak!!
crazzy bugger..

and olinda juz smiled at me. nyahnyah!

juz thinking..

2006-09-20T00:02:00.000+08:00

....some words from my dear before we were together...

you will only realise that after you lost someone,
then you realise that , that someone means so much to you....

hehey... cheers to that..

what i say now is that, it true...
u will feel that way, till u realise that life is all about learning..
learning to move on...and im really glad i'd moved on fro making that harsh decision of breaking the relationship when i still hadgreat feelings 4 her...

well..i had to.. and now.. im with a georgeous gurl...hehe..

and im not shy to say that i love he loads..

am emo now?

neh...!

and i cant wait 4 tomoro... there a suprise 4 me from some one..
nyahnyah! i love suprises!

hehe!

2006-09-14T00:10:00.000+08:00

beautiful lambretta's... all thanks to nurul 4 telling me the name..

ahak! wah

2006-09-13T23:43:00.000+08:00

We hold in our hearts the sword and the faith,
Swelled up from the rain clouds, move like a wraith,.
Well after all,
we'll lie another day
And through it allWe'll find some other way
To carry on through cartilage and fluid
And did you come to stare, or wash away the blood?

Well tonight,
well tonightWill it ever come?
Spend the rest of your daysRocking out just for the dead
Well tonightWill it ever come?
I can see you awake anytime, in my head

Did we all fall down? [x4]

From the lights to the pavement
From the van to the floorFrom backstage to the doctor
From the Earth to the
morgueMorgue, morgue, morgue
Well tonight
Will it ever come?
Spend the rest of your days
Rocking out just for the dead
Well tonightWill it ever come?
I can see you awake anytime in my head

All fall downWell after all......

cool shits from mcr...best band.. hehey..

..
juz came back from town..

went out with yan n nurul..

kinda last min planning..
wait 4 that emo gurl to finish werk..

go to fareast.. folow her shop.. ungs..

eat kfc.. and foung some one stalking me.. ahak!

wana know who?

its the.....Corny gurl!

nyah2...

funny i must say..n i love suprises! juz cant wait..

or can i? hmmm..
and i so lucky to have sweetness back in my life..

or do i? hmmm
hehey, hell yeah i do..ahak!

flowflowflow..

windwindwind..

gelatogelato..

sweetsweetsweet..

lovelovelove..

dudesdudesdudes..

gerekgerekgerek...

lovely..

emo? neh?

ahak! tk paham kn..tak ya tau..

and yeah went home with corny gurl.. long bus ride again?

BAIK AH! ahak-

what plan tomorrow? will c.

hmm..manan dunno..corny gurl fasting..

yan dunno..

ram werking..

acap werking..

school mates.. dunno..

nana.. merajok..dunno why.

yadi. tk reply msn..

qader training 4 his body..

dila..hmm.. mia..

izzat...o level...

aish.. dispatch..

aim.. skul...

kakngah werk..

well.. hmm .. maybe manan will do... going escape n have a romantic day?

aha!
fag..

cant wait to jamm.
but i juz remembered..this saturday i got werk from 12-5. then got kenduri..can jamm in the morning if its even possible? dang... so busy.but still tot of having another job at ade lah.. nyah2..7 bucks /hr.. muai bebeh..lambretta here i come!!
not.

yeayea!

2006-09-12T23:08:00.000+08:00

awesome day.. start out great.. eat gelato in the morning... watch movie at hm..

went out at 2.45 pm.. went to town..

got my 2nd home.. gelatissimo..

disturbe pple..

eat gelato..

meet miss hour glass..

had rapsberries n veronesse choc..

went to eat at kfc..

took pictures..

fed up with my hair..miss hour glass is irritated with my fugly hair.so decided to buy me a haircut..

went to far east to find a hair salon..
but all v expensive.

so went to bishan salon...

cut hair.. cutcutcut..cutcutcut...

laugh2..

ahak!

n in the end my freaking hair is short.. and i mean reali short..

but she says i luk orite.. soo... orite lah...

my head is more airry..gerek..but kinda miz my long hair.. hies....

ended the day with beautiful stuffs...hehe..

have i found the right one?

i hope so hehe..i do...

wah!!!

2006-09-09T00:26:00.000+08:00

i'm sosososo joyfull.
wana know why?

its none of ur business..

but i am..
wah..
could'nt actually believe i got what i wanted..

seems like a bonus to me..

alhamdullillah.......

n yeah one of my cuz is having a majlis perkahwinan..

but witch one pn i dont know..

aniways..
i sah gayle and nurul maideen while working at gelato shop wit yan..

and bloddy hell, the said my name..
atleast a din! hehey

din: hey gayle, hey nurul..(dengan tk malu nye.. biase lah..)

nurul,gayle: Hey lovely din.

ahak!!

neh actually they said juz a hey din...

kk .. n i luv my lady lumps..her i mean..

so shock that she chose free gelato! hehe..

n juz cant wait to squeez 'em.. nyahnyah!

2006-09-05T22:26:00.000+08:00

the best band ever........

what?

2006-09-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

what do i actually want?

to appoligise..

be close..

be happy..

but face the fact.. id never get what i wanted.....

hope my prayers be answered.....hope so....

n i cant deny that i love my chemical romance...
give a smile to my face when all the mats are sooo over the fucking song..
MCR for ever.. and their new album wil be out next month..three sheers to the black parade..

am i emo?

Fuck you!

i think...

2006-09-05T00:03:00.001+08:00

Juz some word from some one..

deep down inside, everybody wants what they want..
just that some people show it, while some people don't.
some people let it go hoping that it comes back to their arms..
while some people insist on holding on nomatter what the outcome are...

i hold to it .. i promise...

hopefully one day i have the right( even nt perfact ) one.. no body's perfact..

i think...

2006-09-05T00:03:00.000+08:00

hmm..

2006-09-03T22:34:00.000+08:00

things seems complicated in my life.. but why am i so patient?
maybe its just who i am..
she's nice.but seems better when with him..
its my decision aniway..
how it turns out well..
cause if it does not,
i'd rip him into 9 parts.. why 9 parts?
u know why.. ahak..
dang..

will she come true?
will i ever get what i wanted?
sometimes its just better not to dream, or have a list of what i want..
cause i always end up not getting it..
who cares aniway..

now i still have the 8 dudes of the octagon table..
*manan
*yadi
*Qader
*izzat
*yan
*ram
*acap
*amma
And i still have the 2 chicks of the table..
*suznani
*dila

yeah and ive been promoted by the ex-president of wak jofferes
to senior exercutive-cum planner. ahak.. some stuff..

and yeah yesterday was happening.. ahak..
seen some dudes fight because of "jitaks".. ahak..funny...

and i wana go climbing.. anione wana tag along?
post me or the postman..

din..

2006-09-03T01:52:00.000+08:00

one word to explain today... KECOH!! .. n yeah... chilled wit some people i favour... gerek.. do this do that.. and im kinda lazy to update my blog..
am i emo?
nt really.. bt i dress emo?
yer ker? ahak!
ur cute as a cat?
yeah...
ma life revolves around u?
maybe... dang...
i love the whole world?
maybe..
the whole world loves me?
hardly..
who cares aniway.. as long as i have ma peeps..
and she is like in ma freaking mind now...

it's the start of something new..
it feels so right to be here with you...

have i moved on?
hell yeah i do...

miz any one?
hell yeah..

hies... dang... i love my lady lumps ahak!!
kk tataz..

btw... by far the crappiest post... who cares aniway...

hehe..

2006-08-29T12:36:00.000+08:00

How fortunate are you?
well i think im kinda fortunate to get a corny gurl who likes lemon sorbet.. smell like a fish... look like a cat.. laugh cutely like me.!! ahak!.. everything i ask for... alhamdulillah...

finally..

2006-08-25T11:52:00.000+08:00

finally a new blog ...n now every thing is settelled... yeah bebeh...kk n this blog is now juzt mine k.. no sharring... n nisa please dun blackmail me k.... ahak.. joking ,man...

yest rugby training was .. hmmm.. juz wassant gerek enuf arg.. cause i didnt get to score .. but tats okay...n intresting pple kept comming into ma life... heh. tot of going to escape this saturday.. but hies... entah lak eh... ko arg nan spoil arg.. ahak..-!

atlast i feel better

2006-08-23T10:11:00.000+08:00

WEEEEEEE!!. ahak, juz feel like argghhh!! ahak.felt alot and wayway better then yesterday... thanks to nan for the chill pills and nana for murdering ma emo nes ahak- gorgeous.. people arnd me are awesome... kick ass i must say... nan is crazy.. dila is lost and,,yadi is jobless, n nana is fat, ahak-joking man... actualy i was kinda lost before ...now2..

alrite when is the next jamming session? wana scream like ice cream...k crap.. will blog again soon.. n i dun think thak anione is reading ma blog so to hell with that..n im nt sure if there be sharing of this blog animore... wil juz c how it goes...

the dreams.....

2006-08-16T10:07:00.000+08:00

hies.....whats worst.. she appearing in ma dreams... damn.....

last saturday

2006-08-14T11:00:00.000+08:00

last saturday was...hies..... just..reminds me of those happy times e had...almost put tears to ma eyes...but i had to hold those shits...damn.......

hies..

2006-08-11T11:26:00.000+08:00

jus one word would sum it up.. hies...

juz.. a damn...

just a story to share..juz miz dem

2006-08-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

There was a blind gal who used to hate everyone xcept her boyfriend..She always use to say that i'll marry u if i could see..Suddenly one day sumone donated the eyes..When she saw her boyfriend,she was astonished to see that he was also blind..Her boyfriend asked "Will u marry me now?" She simply refused..Her boyfriend went away saying "Just take good care of my eyes"

A nice n simple piece of story..but still got sum deepest meaning..

Miz dem...keep reminising the good old days..the endless laughter..the endless stories bout each other..the stupid jokes..the lame games..the crazy dance moves..the thai songs(sing a song ah sing a song)haha! the hair perming day..the tears..the problems..the bitchy teacher tat separate us..so much stuff i juz love to tink back wen im lonely n sad..
Appreciate dem 4 wat they had done 4 me all tis while..cant imagine a life without dem..

Juz missing dem so much tat makes my eyes turned watery n nose blocked by 'hingus'..
I thank God to haf met dem..to haf 2 frens who are so damn close to me..i juz hope they place me where i always placed dem.............in my heart..
Luv dem..
p.s: I oso miz u guyz...manan,yadi,qader

Nisa Out..

finally its me!!

2006-08-07T17:09:00.000+08:00

Suprise, suprise! its din this time... what? ive repaired ma comp? neh - ahak! actually im using kak sri's note book..didnt blog for a long time and currently im sharing this blog with nisa.. so its official, its ours now alrite..

This Blog site is now officially shared by two participants named
Fahkrudin Bin Mohd Yasin and Hanisah Bte Rahmat..

hehey,..kk.. yeah spend some quality time wit her lately... really need it seh..
n having a comp is both gd and bad huh.... ahak..

about today... just a penat day... woke up at 7 when im suppose to meet her at 745am..damn.. u nye pasal lah nie tk kejot kn i..hies..hehey..niway met up wit u eventually ape so no need for the kecoh.- damn my english is becomming more rusty by day.. cant spell some word.. ahak.. . now im kindda in a rush to werk.. wad a busy guy i am huh..

n nisa, ur the sweetest thing that has happen to me ever since 2 years back..
tequiro hasta internity too ....