music is the shorthand of EMOTIONS

Saturday, June 30, 2007 @Saturday, June 30, 2007

this addiction to you that i had,

grows stronger and stronger,

i can't control it cause i dont want to,

and everything that will i happen ,

i can't tell cause i don't know where this is going.

i don't have someone to capture my tears,

but for a couple of years back ,

i was high.

i was at cloud nine..

every thing that i needed i guess.

but i was wrong.

for the vow.

and i lost everything,

cause you meant everything ,

everything to me.

smiles becomes oh so difficult,

but it comes oh so sincere when by ur side..

everything bout her i adore,

her smile i can't forget,

her eyes i can't seem to ignore,

yet the vow i regret..

now as i see my future shatter,

right before my vary eyes,

i can't help but just hang on to the the sweet memories,

all those that we've left hanging..

but bellow is my arms,

just incase it ever falls,

it will fall in there.

and the warmth that we've share ,

will we feel it once more.

and we go off with nothing to bring,

cause we don't really need anithing but each other.........

well...

i just go dream...

everytime i see

you in my dreams,

i see your face,

it keeps haunting me..

i guess i miss u baby..

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Wednesday, June 20, 2007 @Wednesday, June 20, 2007

by matchbook romance..

enjoy.

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Sunday, June 10, 2007 @Sunday, June 10, 2007

and we all go thru our lives, passing every sweet and also sour moments .

and its going too fast,

but not for me for all i felt was the want to be alive.

and the only was was to be loved by alot.

someone to care about u..

we got families to do that,

but we just need more.

much for us to just have a shoulder to lean on when we need it.

but we can have a million shoulders to lean on but still feel empty

cause all we need was that special someone to be in ur heart.

and to me,

its not a want but a need.

i just want to find the right one.

its as slow as i tought ,

and yea it sucks.

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okay about whats going on , erm well, my scheduel is just full of work work and work, well except for next week , cause shattered skies will be performing at ngee ann city on the saturday and liang court on the sunday, on on the weekday we'll be jamming or so called rehersal's for us. come support us if you guys are free alright.

Bike!!!

well i think its gonna be another month for me till i get one.
and i so cant wait fot that! argh!

work was fine. as per normal, and tips rate are going really-really good.. i loike!
i loike it alot...
and the wheelie i did with the pizza bike have left me some souveniers.(how do u spell that?) but the main point is, wheelie ! haha! fun but scarry. but fun.but scarry but..........

k now its my turn to write the oh oh oh oh ho song..

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ehbah!

i would like to thank my mom my day my post man, my poster, my yah and justifah tembilak cause i dont know him.

cheers for good day today..10-june-07.

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Sunday, June 03, 2007 @Sunday, June 03, 2007

As the sun slowly climbs its way up the horizon, so perfact, so speachless i went..

always reminded me of the good time that we had at the beach, right after cycling or inline-skating. the wind brush our face, and i said to her, for every time you feel the gust of wind brush thru ur face, it reminds u of me , and for every gust of wind thats brushing thru mine, it reminds me of you..
.....as we held hands and everything feels right..

but ever since we walked away,
my life was a dissarray...now that "will" to move on is no longer there.. its harder than i tought..

its tough..

all the hopes and dreams that we had just shattered right infront of our very eyes..

all that i can ever do now is try to forget, that want to forget is difficult.

now is getting harder.
my vision narrowed,
my lungs filled with depressed,
and the need to breadth is lost.
its like my soul was stolen...

1year had passed...

should'nt i be moving on by now?

still its hard.

until that light i used to see, i saw it once more..

but this time its different, it was blurred , a sign of unsure,...

i just don't want to be alone anymore...

i know i'm not.. well u know what i mean u son of a bitch..okay that does not reffer to anyone .

i don't deserve to be together with her..
don't deserve her.
don't deserve a strand of her hair even.
it sucks.

and it sucks even more to realise that ur damn fucking lonely ass muthafucka is blogging about it, telling every one that i'm lonely..

I AM LONELY!!!

but what's the worst that could happen...

i need someone.. but i dont know who..

does anyone know?

sometimes i wish that god just points to the love of ur life, so i don't have to go thru all the suffering that i am going tru now...
wait, how old am i aniway?

i just 19thisyear,

and if god wants me to stay, i still got about 80more years to live..

so whats the rush?

its just that i cant hold this loneliness anymore..

now the least that i have is u..

but i juz hope things go smoothly..

i just hope..

okay now a lil sum'sum for ya'll..

so confused,
for which way should i go...
i see the light, but what can't i see u?

so let my eyes be blinded by the light,
let it hurt for what i've done i think is right...

and i was wrong,
and we lost everything,so why can't u see.
and when it all feels right,
we don't know what to do,
so baby just hold my hand ,
and maybe ,we could fly again..

tada.. a post.

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