Sunday, June 03, 2007 @Sunday, June 03, 2007
As the sun slowly climbs its way up the horizon, so perfact, so speachless i went..always reminded me of the good time that we had at the beach, right after cycling or inline-skating. the wind brush our face, and i said to her, for every time you feel the gust of wind brush thru ur face, it reminds u of me , and for every gust of wind thats brushing thru mine, it reminds me of you.. .....as we held hands and everything feels right..but ever since we walked away, my life was a dissarray...now that "will" to move on is no longer there.. its harder than i tought..its tough..all the hopes and dreams that we had just shattered right infront of our very eyes.. all that i can ever do now is try to forget, that want to forget is difficult.now is getting harder.my vision narrowed,my lungs filled with depressed,and the need to breadth is lost.its like my soul was stolen...1year had passed...should'nt i be moving on by now?still its hard.until that light i used to see, i saw it once more..but this time its different, it was blurred , a sign of unsure,...i just don't want to be alone anymore... i know i'm not.. well u know what i mean u son of a bitch..okay that does not reffer to anyone .i don't deserve to be together with her..don't deserve her.don't deserve a strand of her hair even.it sucks.and it sucks even more to realise that ur damn fucking lonely ass muthafucka is blogging about it, telling every one that i'm lonely..I AM LONELY!!!but what's the worst that could happen...i need someone.. but i dont know who..does anyone know?sometimes i wish that god just points to the love of ur life, so i don't have to go thru all the suffering that i am going tru now...wait, how old am i aniway? i just 19thisyear,and if god wants me to stay, i still got about 80more years to live..so whats the rush?its just that i cant hold this loneliness anymore..now the least that i have is u..but i juz hope things go smoothly..i just hope..okay now a lil sum'sum for ya'll..so confused, for which way should i go...i see the light, but what can't i see u?so let my eyes be blinded by the light,let it hurt for what i've done i think is right...and i was wrong, and we lost everything,so why can't u see.and when it all feels right,we don't know what to do,so baby just hold my hand ,and maybe ,we could fly again..tada.. a post.
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